Appreciation
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Those who
attended the meditation retreat in November 1987 at Pelmadulla Bhikkhu
Training Centre, Ratnapura District, Sri Lanka, Have made it possible to
print these Dhamma talks given during the retreat. They felt that others
too could benefit from them and supported and encouraged this project so
that it has now come to fruit.
Not only am I
thankful for their help with this book, but also most appreciative of
their presence at the retreat, which enabled me to give these talks.
Special
gratitude is offered to Lasanda Kurukulasuriya, who selflessly and
lovingly typed and re-typed the manuscript.
The Sarvodaya
Shramadana Movement through their President Dr. Ariyaratne kindly provided
us with transport and offered the use of the Centre premises, which was
another meritorious service in the long list of their humanitarian
efforts.
As always, my
friend and Dhamma sister Ayya Nyanasiri (Helen Wilder) has given the last
polish and much invaluable advice, without which I would probably never
have published any books at all.
May the
merits of this Gift of Dhamma bring much benefit to all.
Sister Ayya
Khema
Parappuduwa Nuns Island,
Dodanduwa,
Sri Lanka.
December 31st, 1989
Preface
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Meditation
retreats are a time for introspection. Because they are held in silence,
except for Dhamma talks and questions, the mind becomes more and more used
to mindfulness and concentration. This gives added impetus to the hearing
of Dhamma, so that the truth of the Buddha's teaching can leave a lasting
impression.
When you open
this book, dear reader, may be you could imagine being in a meditation
retreat, where nothing else matters except the clarity and wholesomeness
of your own mind. This means leaving all daily preoccupations aside and
focusing strictly on the wonderful freedom the Buddha's teaching and
practice can provide. May you enjoy the following pages and find something
useful in them.
Sister Ayya
Khema
Glossary
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The following
Pali words encompass concepts and levels of ideas for which there are no
adequate synonyms in English. The explanations of these terms have been
adapted from the Buddhist Dictionary by Nyanatiloka Mahathera.
Anagami
-- The "Non-Returner" is a noble disciple on the 3rd stage of holiness.
Anatta
-- "No-self," non-ego, egolessness, impersonality; "neither within the
bodily and mental phenomena of existence, nor outside of them can be found
anything that in the ultimate sense could be regarded as a self-existing
real ego-identity, soul or any other abiding substance."
Anicca
-- "Impermanence," a basic feature of all conditioned phenomena, be they
material or mental, coarse or subtle, one's own or external.
Anusaya
-- The seven "proclivities," inclinations or tendencies.
Arahat/Arahant
-- The Holy One. Through the extinction of all cankers, he reaches already
in this very life the deliverance of the mind, the deliverance through
wisdom, which is free from cankers, and which he himself has understood
and realized.
Ariya
-- Noble Ones. Noble Persons.
Avijja
-- Ignorance, nescience, unknowing, synonymous with delusion, is the
primary root of all evil and suffering in the world, veiling man's mental
eyes and preventing him from seeing the true nature of things.
Bhavaraga
-- Craving for continued existence; one of the seven tendencies.
Citta-viveka
-- Mental detachment, the inner detachment from sensuous things.
Devas
-- Heavenly Beings, deities, celestials are beings who live in happy
worlds, but are not freed from the cycle of existence.
Dhamma
-- The liberating law discovered and proclaimed by the Buddha, summed up
in the Four Noble Truths.
Ditthi
-- View, belief, speculative opinion. If not qualified by "right," it
mostly refers to wrong and evil view or opinion.
Dukkha
-- (1) In common usage: "pain", painful feeling, which may be bodily or
mental. (2) In Buddhist usage as, e.g., in the Four Noble Truths:
suffering, ill, the unsatisfactory nature and general insecurity of all
conditioned phenomena.
Jhana
-- Meditative absorptions. Tranquillity meditation.
Kalyanamitta -- Noble or good friend is called a senior monk who is
the mentor and friend of his pupil wishing for his welfare and concerned
with his progress, guiding his meditation; in particular the meditation
teacher.
Kamma/Karma -- "Action" denotes the wholesome and unwholesome
volitions and their concomitant mental factors, causing rebirth and
shaping the character of beings and thereby their destiny. The term does
not signify the result of actions and most certainly not the deterministic
fate of man.
Kammatthana -- lit.: "working-ground" (i.e., for meditation) is the
term for subjects of meditation.
Kaya-viveka -- Bodily detachment, i.e., abiding in solitude free from
alluring sensuous objects.
Khandha
-- The five "groups", are called the five aspects in which the Buddha has
summed up all the physical and mental phenomena of existence, and which
appear to the ordinary man as his ego or personality, to wit: body,
feeling, perception, mental formations and consciousness.
Lokiya
-- "Mundane," are all those states of consciousness and mental factors
arising in the worldling, as well as in the noble one, which are not
associated with the supermundane.
Lokuttara
-- "Supermundane," is a term for the four paths and four fruitions.
Magga-phala -- Path and fruit. First arises the path-consciousness,
immediately followed by "fruition," a moment of supermundane awareness.
Mana
-- Conceit, pride, one of the ten fetters binding to existence, also one
of the underlying tendencies.
Mara
-- The Buddhist "tempter" figure, the personification of evil and
passions, of the totality of worldly existence and of death.
Metta
-- Loving-kindness, one of the four sublime emotions (brahma-vihara)
Nibbana
-- lit. "Extinction," to cease blowing, to become extinguished. Nibbana
constitutes the highest and ultimate goal of all Buddhist aspirations,
i.e., absolute extinction of that life-affirming will manifested as greed,
hate and delusion and clinging to existence, thereby the absolute
deliverance from all future rebirth.
Nivarana
-- "Hindrances," five qualities which are obstacles to the mind and blind
our mental vision, and obstruct concentration, to wit: sensual desire,
ill-will, sloth and torpor, restlessness and worry, and skeptical doubt.
Papañca
-- "Proliferation," lit. "expansion, diffuseness," detailed exposition,
development, manifoldness, multiplicity, differentiation.
Paticcasamuppada -- "Dependent Origination" is the doctrine of the
conditionality of all physical and psychical phenomena.
Puthujjana
-- lit. "one of the many folk," worldling, ordinary man, anyone still
possessed of all the ten fetters binding to the round of rebirths.
Sacca
-- Truth, such as the "Four Noble Truths."
Sakadagami
-- The Once-Returner, having shed the five lower fetters, reappears in the
higher world to reach Nibbana.
Sakkaya-ditthi -- Personality-belief is the first of the ten fetters
and is abandoned at stream-entry.
Samatha
-- Tranquillity, serenity, is a synonym of samadhi (concentration).
Samsara
-- Round of rebirth, lit, "perpetual wandering," is a name by which is
designated the sea of life ever restlessly heaving up and down.
Sangha
-- lit. Congregation, is the name for the community of monks and nuns. As
the third of the Three Gems and the Three Refuges, it applies to the
community of the Noble Ones.
Samvega
-- "The sources of emotion," or a sense of urgency.
Sankhara
-- Most general usage: formation. mental formations and kamma formations.
Sometimes: bodily functions or mental functions. Also: anything formed.
Silabbataparamasa -- Attachment to mere rules and rituals is the third
fetter and one of the four kinds of clinging. It disappears on attaining
to stream-entry.
Sotapatti
-- Stream-entry, the first attainment of becoming a noble one.
Vicikiccha
-- Skeptical doubt is one of the five mental hindrances and one of the
three fetters, which disappears forever at stream-entry.
Vipassana
-- Insight into the truth of the impermanence, suffering and impersonality
of all corporal and mental phenomena of existence.
Yatha-bhuta ñana-dassana -- The knowledge and vision according to
reality, is one of eighteen chief kinds of insight.
I. The
Meditative Mind
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People are
often surprised to find it is difficult to meditate. Outwardly it seems to
be such a simple matter, to just sit down on a little pillow and watch
one's breath. What could be hard about that? The difficulty lies in the
fact that one's whole being is totally unprepared. Our mind, senses, and
feelings are used to trade in the market place, namely the world we live
in. But meditation cannot be done in a market place. That's impossible.
There's nothing to buy or trade or arrange in meditation, but most
people's attitude remains the same as usual and that just doesn't work.
We need
patience with ourselves. It takes time to change to the point where
meditation is actually a state of mind, available at any time because the
market place is no longer important. The market place doesn't just mean
going shopping. It means everything that is done in the world: all the
connections, ideas, hopes and memories, all the rejections and
resistances, all our reactions.
In meditation
there are may be momentary glimpses of seeing that concentration is
feasible, but it can't be sustained. It constantly slips again and the
mind goes right back to where it came from. In order to counteract that,
one has to have determination to make one's life a meditative one; it
doesn't mean one has to meditate from morning to night. I don't know
anyone who does. And it doesn't mean we cannot fulfill our duties and
obligations, because they are necessary and primary as long as we have
them. But it means that we watch ourselves carefully in all our actions
and reactions to make sure that everything happens in the light of the
Dhamma -- the truth. This applies to the smallest detail such as our food,
what we listen to or talk about. Only then can the mind be ready with a
meditative quality when we sit down on the pillow. It means that no matter
where we find ourselves, we remain introspective. That doesn't mean we
can't talk to others, but we watch the content of the discussion.
That is not
easy to do and the mind often slips off. But we can become aware of the
slip. If we aren't even aware that we have digressed from mindfulness and
inner watchfulness, we aren't on the meditative path yet. If our mind has
the Dhamma quality established within, then meditation has a good chance.
The more we
know of the Dhamma, the more we can watch whether we comply with its
guidelines. There is no blame attached to our inability to do so. But the
least we can do is to know the guidelines and know where we're making
mistakes. Then we practice to get nearer and nearer to absolute reality,
until one day we will actually be the Dhamma.
There is this
difference between one who know and one who practices. The one who knows
may understand the words and concepts but the one who practices knows only
one thing, namely, to become that truth. Words are an utilitarian means
not only for communication, but also to solidify ideas. That's why words
can never reveal the truth, only personal experience can. We attain our
experiences through realizing what's happening within and why it is as it
is. This means that we combine watchfulness with inquiry as to why we're
thinking, saying and reacting the way we do. Unless we use our mind in
this way, meditation will be an on-again, off-again affair and will remain
difficult. When meditation doesn't bring joy, most people are quite happy
to forget about it.
Without the
meditative mind and experience, the Dhamma cannot arise in the heart,
because the Dhamma is not in words. The Buddha was able to verbalize his
inner experience for our benefit, to give us a guideline. That means we
can find a direction, but we have to do the traveling ourselves.
To have a
meditative mind, we need to develop some important inner qualities. We
already have their seed within, otherwise we couldn't cultivate them. If
we want flowers in our garden and there are no seeds, we can water and
fertilize, yet nothing will grow. The watering and fertilizing of the mind
is done in meditation. Weeding has to be done in daily living. Weeds
always seem to grow better in any garden than the flowers do. It takes a
lot of strength to uproot those weeds, but it is not so difficult to cut
them down. As they get cut down again and again, they eventually become
feeble and their uprooting is made easy. Cutting down and uprooting the
weeds needs sufficient introspection into ourselves to know what is a weed
and what is a flower. We have to be very sure, because we don't want to
pull out all the flowers and leave all the weeds. A garden with many weeds
isn't much of an ornament.
People's
hearts and minds usually contain equal amounts of flowers and weeds. We're
born with the three roots of evil: greed, hate and delusion, and the three
roots of good: generosity, loving-kindness and wisdom. Doesn't it make
sense to try and get rid of those three roots which are the generators of
all problems, all our unpleasant experiences and reactions?
If we want to
eliminate those three roots, we have to look at their outcrops. They're
the roots underneath the surface, but obviously a root sprouts and shows
itself above the surface. We can see that within ourselves. Caused by
delusion, we manifest greed and hate. There are different facets of greed
and hate, and the simplest and most common one is "I like," "I want," "I
don't like," and "I don't want". Most people think such reactions are
perfectly justified, and yet that is greed and hate. Our roots have
sprouted in so many different ways that we have all sorts of weeds
growing. If we look at a garden we will find possibly thirty or forty
different types of weeds. We might have that many or more unwholesome
thoughts and emotions. They have different appearances and power but
they're all coming from the same roots. As we can't get at the roots yet,
we have to deal with what is above the surface. When we cultivate the good
roots, they become so mighty and strong that the weeds do not find enough
nourishment any more. As long as we allow room for the weeds in our
garden, we take the nutriment away from the beautiful plants, instead of
cultivating those more and more. This takes place as a development in
daily living, which then makes it possible to meditate as a natural
outcome of our state of mind.
At this point
in time we are trying to change our mind from an ordinary one to a
meditative one, which is difficult if one hasn't practiced very much yet.
We only have one mind and carry that around with us to every activity and
also to the meditation. If we have an inkling that meditation can bring us
peace and happiness, then we need to make sure we have a meditative mind
already when we sit down. To change it from busy-ness to quiet at that
moment is too difficult.
The state of
mind which we need to develop for meditation is well described by the
Buddha. Two aspects of importance are mindfulness and the calming of the
senses. Internal mindfulness may sometimes be exchanged for external
mindfulness because under some circumstances that is an essential part of
practice. The world impinges upon us, which we cannot deny.
External
mindfulness also means to see a tree, for instance, in a completely new
way. Not with the usual thoughts of "that's pretty," or "I like this one
in may garden," but rather noticing that there are live and dead leaves,
that there are growing plants, mature ones and dying ones. We can witness
the growth, birth and decay all around us. We can understand craving very
clearly by watching ants, mosquitoes, dogs. We need not look at them as a
nuisance, but as teachers. Ants, mosquitoes and barking dogs are the kind
of teachers who don't leave us alone until the lessons are fully learned.
When we see all in the light of birth, decay, death, greed, hate and
delusion, we are looking in a mirror of all life around us, then we have
Dhamma on show. All of us are proclaiming the truth of Dhamma constantly,
only we don't pay enough attention.
We can use
mindfulness to observe that everything in existence consists of the four
elements, earth, fire, water, air; and then check out what is the
difference between ourselves and all else. When we take practice seriously
and look at all life in such a way, then we find the truth all around as
well as within us. Nothing else exists.
This gives us
the ability to leave the marketplace behind where the mind flits from one
thing to the next, never has a moment's peace, is either dull and
indifferent or hateful and greedy. But when we look at that which really
is, we're drawing nearer to what the Buddha taught, out of his compassion
for all the beings that are roaming around in samsara from one
dukkha to the next. He taught, so that people like us may awaken to
the truth.
We should
neither believe nor disbelieve what we hear or read, but try it out
ourselves. If we give our wholehearted attention to this practice, we will
find that it changes our approach to living and dying. To be whole-hearted
is a necessity in anything we do. If we get married and are half-hearted
about it, that cannot be very successful. Half-hearted practice of Dhamma
results in chaotic misunderstanding. Whole-heartedness may have at its
core devotion, and a mind which goes beyond everyday thoughts and
activities.
Another facet
which goes together with mindfulness, is clear comprehension. Mindfulness
is knowing only, without any discriminating faculty. Mindfulness does not
evaluate of judge but pays full attention. Clear comprehension has four
aspects to it. First: "What is my purpose in thinking, talking or doing?"
Thought, speech and action are our three doors. Second "Am I using the
most skillful means for my purpose?" That needs wisdom and discrimination.
Third: "Are these means within the Dhamma?" Knowing the distinction
between wholesome and unwholesome. The thought process needs our primary
attention, because speech and action will follow from it. Sometimes people
think that the end justifies the means. It doesn't. Both means and end
have to be within the Dhamma. The fourth step is to check whether our
purpose has been accomplished, and if not, why not.
If we live
with these steps in mind, we will slow down, which is helpful for our
reactions. No inactivity, that is not the answer, but the meditative
quality of the mind, which watches over what we are doing. When we use
mindfulness and clear comprehension, we have to give time to investigate.
Checking prevents mistakes.
Our wrong
thinking creates the danger of making bad kamma and takes us away from the
truth into nebulous mind-states. The Dhamma is straight forward, simple
and pure. It needs a pure mind to stay with it. Otherwise we find
ourselves outside of it again and again.
External
mindfulness can also extend to other people, but here we need to be very
careful. Seeing and knowing others engenders negative judgment. If we
practice external mindfulness towards other people, we have to realize
that judging others is making bad kamma. We can pay attention with
compassion. People-watching is one of the most popular pastimes but
usually done with the intention of finding fault. Everyone who's not
enlightened has faults; even the highly developed non-returner has yet
five fetters to lose. What to say about ordinary worldlings? To use other
people as our mirror is very helpful because they reflect our own being.
We can only see in others what we already know about ourselves. The rest
is lost to us.
If we add
clear comprehension to our mindfulness and check our purpose and skillful
means we will eliminate much grief and worry. We will develop an awareness
which will make every day, every moment an adventure. Most people feel
bogged down and burdened. Either they have too much or too little to do;
not enough money to do what they like or they frantically move about
trying to occupy themselves. Everybody wants to escape from unsatisfactory
conditions, but the escape mechanism that each one chooses does not
provide real inner joy. However with mindfulness and clear comprehension,
just watching a tree is fascinating. It brings a new dimension to our
life, a buoyancy of mind, enabling us to grasp wholeness, instead of the
limitations of our family, job, hopes and dreams. That way we can expand,
because we're fascinated with what we see around and within us, and want
to explore further. No "my" mind, "my" body, "my" tree, but just phenomena
all around us, to provide us with the most fascinating, challenging
schoolroom that anybody could ever find. Our interest in the schoolroom
increases as mindfulness increases.
To develop a
meditative mind, we also need to calm our senses. We don't have to deny
our senses, that would be foolishness, but see them for what they are.
Mara the tempter is not a fellow with a long tail and a flaming red
tongue, but rather our senses. We hardly ever pay attention to what they
do to us when they pull us from an interesting sight to a beautiful sound,
and back to the sight, the tough, the idea. No Peace! Our constant
endeavor is to catch a moment's pleasure.
A sense
contact has to be very fleeting, because otherwise it becomes a great
dukkha. Let's say we are offered a very nice meal which tastes
extremely good. So we say to our host: "That's a very nice meal, I like it
very much." The host replies: "I have lots of food here, please stay
around and eat for another two or three hours." If we did, we would not
only get sick in body but also disgusted in our mind. A meal can last
twenty or at the most thirty minutes. Each taste contact can only last a
second, then we have to chew and swallow. If we were to keep it in the
mouth any longer, it would become very unpleasant.
Maybe we feel
very hot and go to take a cold shower. We say to our friend waiting
outside: "Now I feel good, that cold water is very pleasant." Our friend
says: "We have plenty of cold water, you can have a shower for the next
five to six hours." Nothing but absolute misery would result. We can enjoy
a cold shower for ten or twenty minutes at the most.
Anything that
is prolonged will create dukkha. All contacts pass quickly, because
that is their nature. The same goes for sight, our eyes are continually
blinking. We can't even keep sight constant for the length of time we're
looking at anything. We may be looking at a beautiful painting for a
little while and really like it. Someone says: "You can stay here and look
at the painting for the next five hours, we're not closing the museum
yet." Nobody could do that. We can't look at the same thing a long time,
without feeling bored, losing all awareness, or even falling asleep. Sense
contacts are not only limited because of their inability to give
satisfaction. They are actually waves that come and go. If we are
listening to some lovely music, after a few hours the same music becomes
unbearable. Our sense contacts are mirroring a reflection of satisfaction,
which has no real basis in fact. That's Mara constantly leading us astray.
There's a
pertinent story of a monk in the Buddha's time which relates the ultimate
in sense discipline. A married couple had a big row and the woman decided
to run away. She put on several of her best saris, one over the other,
wore all her gold jewelry and left. After a while the husband was sorry
that he had let her go and followed her. He ran here and there, but
couldn't find her. Finally he came across a monk who was walking along the
street. he asked the monk if he'd seen a woman in a red sari with long
black hair and lots of jewelry around her neck and arms. The monk said: "I
saw a set of teeth going by."
The monk was
not paying attention to the concepts of a woman with long black hair, a
red sari, and lots of jewelry, but only to the fact that there was a human
being with a set of teeth. He had calmed his senses to the point where the
sight object was no longer tempting him into a reaction. An ordinary
person at the sight of a beautiful woman with black hair, a red sari and
lots of jewelry, running excitedly along the street, might have been
tempted to follow her. A set of teeth going by, is highly unlikely to
create desire. That is calming the senses.
If we come
upon a snake, it's not an object of dislike, or destruction, but just a
sentient being that happens to be around. That's all. There's nothing to
be done, nothing to react to. If we think of it as a snake that could kill
us, then of course, the mind can go berserk, just as the monk's mind could
have done, if he had thought "Oh, what a beautiful woman."
If we watch
our senses again and again, this becomes a habit, and is no longer
difficult. Life will be much more peaceful. The world as we know it
consists of so much proliferation. Everywhere are different colors,
shapes, beings and nature's growth. Each species of tree has hundreds of
sub-species. Nature proliferates. All of us look different. If we don't
guard our senses, this proliferation in the world will keep us attracted
life after life. There's too much to see, do, know and react to. Since
there is no end to all of that we might as well stop and delve inside of
ourselves.
A meditative
mind is achieved through mindfulness, clear comprehension and calming the
senses. These three aspects of practice need to be done in everyday life.
Peace and harmony will result, and our meditation will flourish.
II. Skillful
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The two
aspects of our being are mind and body. We have to pay attention to both
of them, even though meditation is a mind exercise, not a body exercise.
Some of the
most common questions are: "How am I going to learn to sit?" "How am I not
going to have any pain?" That is only possible through continued
application, doing it again and again. In the beginning, the body just
doesn't like sitting cross-legged on the floor.
We can use
this situation as skillful means. When discomfort arises in the body, we
learn to pay attention to the mind's reaction, and do not move
automatically. Everybody in the world is trying to get out of any kind of
discomfort with an instinctive, immediate reaction. It's not that we're
not going to get out of discomfort, but in order to make meditation pay
off, we have to learn to get out of instinctive, immediate reactions. It's
those that land us in dukkha over and over again.
When there is
an uncomfortable feeling, it is essential to realize what is happening
within. We notice that there is a sense contact, in this case "touch!" The
body is making contact; the knees with the pillow, the legs with each
other, several contacts are happening. From all sense contacts, feelings
arise. There is no way out of that, this is how human beings are made. The
Buddha taught cause and effect, that dependent upon any sense contact,
feeling results. There are three kinds of feelings, pleasant, unpleasant
and neutral. We can forget about the neutral ones, because we are hardly
ever aware of them. Neutral is actually considered pleasant, because at
least it doesn't hurt. From this particular touch contact that is being
made through the sitting posture, there arises, after a while, an
unpleasant feeling. The immediate reaction is to move. Don't! Investigate!
By getting to know our own mind, we get to know the world and the
universe. All minds contain the seed of enlightenment. Unless we know our
own mind, we cannot develop and cultivate that seed. here the mind has
been contacted with an unpleasant feeling, our perception says: "this is
painful." Our next step are the mental formations, which are also kamma
formations, because we make kamma through our thought processes.
First came
the sense contact, secondly feeling arose. Then perception, naming it,
followed by dislike. At the moment of dislike, there is the running away
through changing our position. That is the kamma making aspect. This is
minor negative kamma, yet it's negative, because the mind is in a state of
ill-will by saying "I don't like it."
The mind may
start all kinds of rationalizations: "I wish I'd brought my own little
chair"; "I can't sit"; "At my age I shouldn't do things like this";
"Meditation is too difficult." None of these explanations have any
intrinsic validity, they are only a mind reacting to an unpleasant
feeling. Unless we become acquainted with our mind's reactions, we're not
using meditation in the most beneficial manner.
Knowing the
unpleasant feeling, we can now try to acquaint ourselves with its true
nature. Our whole life is lived according to our feelings. Unless we
become aware of our reactions to feelings, we remain half asleep. There is
a beautiful little book called The Miracle of Being Awake. This
miracle is nothing but mindfulness, knowing what's going on within. When
we have realized we want to get rid of the unpleasant feeling, then we can
try to disown it for a moment. Only the Arahant is fully capable of
complete detachment, but we can do so for a short time. The unpleasant
feeling has arisen without our asking for it and we don't have to believe
it to be ours. We can let it be just a feeling.
If we do that
for a moment, we can get back to the meditation subject, and have won a
victory over our own negative reactions. Otherwise we are letting our
unpleasant feelings rule us in whatever way they want. The whole of
humanity runs after pleasant feelings, and away from unpleasant ones.
Unless we at least know that, we have no reference point for inner change.
It may not be possible to reverse that reaction yet, but at least we know
it is happening.
After we have
become aware of our mind's intention, we're free to move and change our
sitting position. There is nothing wrong with changing one's posture but
there's something wrong with instinctive, impetuous habits. Meditation
means total awareness. Being awake is not the opposite of being asleep; it
is the opposite of being dull and foggy. Such mind states are mostly due
to an unwillingness to look at our own dukkha. We'd rather hide in
a fog. In meditation that won't do. The Buddha said that this body is a
cancer; the body as a whole is a disease, and we can experience that when
just sitting still, it becomes uncomfortable.
Meditation
means samatha and vipassana, calm and insight. Unless we
know the limitations of each and also their possibilities, we won't be
able to make good use of the practice. We are generally applying both of
them in every session, but we must be able to distinguish between them. If
there is no understanding of what's happening in the mind, the fog settles
down in it.
Everybody
would like bliss, peace and happiness. That is a natural wish. They are
available in meditation, with a lot of practice, and some good kamma.
However they are not the goal of meditation. The goal of meditation is
insight. Yet skillful means for gaining insight are needed and are found
in tranquillity meditation.
Making use of
a meditation subject, the mind, after some training, will be able to stay
on it for a while. Presuming that the mind is able to focus on the breath
for even a short time, we realize afterwards that some peace arose,
because the mind was not thinking. The thinking process in everybody's
mind is hardly ever profound. It's just thinking. Just as the body
breathes, so the mind keeps churning. And it keeps churning out mostly
irrelevant, unsubstantial and unimportant details, without which we would
be much happier.
The mind in
its original form is pure. It's clear and lucid, luminous, pliable and
expandable. Our thinking is the impurity and the blockage. There's hardly
a person who doesn't think all day long, probably without even being aware
of it. But when we start meditating, we do become aware of our inner
restlessness. We realize we can't keep the mind on the meditation subject,
because we are thinking instead of meditating. The moment we experience
our thinking habit (even that takes time to realize) we accomplish two
things. We become aware of our mind's activity and also the content of our
thoughts. We will realize immediately that our thinking is irrelevant and
makes little or no sense. Because of that, we can let go of it fairly
easily and return to the meditation subject. We have to be able to stand
back and watch the thinking process and not get involved in it. Otherwise
we'll just keep on thinking instead of meditating.
The mind is
the greatest and most delicate tool existing in the universe. All of us
have it, but few look after it properly. Practically everybody is
interested in looking after their bodies. Eating, sleeping, washing,
exercising, seeing the doctor when the body is sick, cutting hair, nails,
filling teeth, doing everything that's necessary to keep the body
functioning well. In reality, the body is the servant and the mind is the
master. So we are looking after the servant and forgetting the master. If
we do that in our homes, we create chaos. That's one of the reasons why
the world looks as chaotic as it does. People kill each other, steal from
each other, are unfaithful, lie, gossip and slander. Most have absolutely
no ideas that the mind is our most precious asset. It gives us wealth
beyond compare and yet we don't know how to look after it.
We have to do
exactly the same thing for the mind as we do for the body. We need to give
it a rest. Imagine if we didn't go to sleep for three or four days, how
would we feel? Without energy, without strength, pretty terrible. The body
needs a rest, but the mind does too. During the day it thinks, at night it
dreams. It's always busy. The only real rest it can ever get, which
energizes and gives the needed boost to become clear and lucid, is to stay
on the meditation subject.
The mind
needs a clean-up, which means purification. This happens when all thinking
is stopped for a while, because of one-pointed concentration. One moment
of concentration is one moment of purification. At that time the mind
cannot contain ill-will or sensual desire, or any other negativity. When
the concentration ceases, the mind reverts to its usual behavior again. In
meditation we can experience that a purified mind gives us happiness, and
quite naturally we will try to keep that purification process going also
in daily living.
The mind
needs the kind of exercise that is not geared towards winning or achieving
anything, but just to obey. When we ask the mind to stay on the meditation
subject, yet it runs away from it, we know immediately that we are not the
master of our mind, but that the mind does what it pleases. When we have
realized that, we will be less likely to believe our own views and
opinions, particularly when they are unwholesome, because we understand
that the mind is simply thinking habitually. Only through the meditation
process can we become aware of that.
The mind also
requires the right kind of food. Because in meditation we can reach states
of higher consciousness, we are thereby able to nourish the mind in a way
which cannot happen in the ordinary thinking process. Tranquillity
meditation leads the mind into realms which are totally unavailable to us
otherwise. Happiness and peacefulness arise without dependence on outer
conditions, which give us a new freedom.
The mind of
every human being contains the seed of Nibbana. We need training in order
to realize what is obscuring our vision. Then the seed can be cultivated
and nurtured to full growth. Because our minds contain such a potential,
they also contain the peace and happiness which everybody wants. Most
people try to find fulfillment through acquiring material objects, seeing
or touching, eating or knowing them. Particularly having more and keeping
it all safe.
This
dependency is a guarantee for dukkha. As long as we depend on outer
conditions, whether people, experiences, countries, religions, wealth or
fame, we are in constant fear of losing our footing, because everything
changes and vanishes. The only way we can have real peace and happiness,
is by being independent of all around us. That means gaining access to the
purity of our mind without thinking, which involves staying on our
meditation subject long enough for our consciousness to change. The
thinking consciousness is the consciousness we all know. It contains
constant ups and downs, either liking or disliking, wanting something in
the future or regretting something about the past, hoping for better days
or remembering worse ones. It is always anxious and cannot be expected to
be totally peaceful.
We are
familiar with a different consciousness also, for instance when we love
someone very much. That emotion changes our consciousness to where we are
only giving from the heart. We know a different consciousness when we are
involved with religious activities, with faith and confidence aroused. We
are giving ourselves to an ideal. None of that lasts through, and all
depends upon outer conditions.
Through
meditation we can change our consciousness to an awareness of purity
within, which all of us have, only obscured through thinking. At that time
we realize that such an independent peace and happiness are only possible
when the "me" and "mine" are forgotten for a moment, when "I want to be
happy" is eliminated. It is impossible to have peace when thinking about
"self." This will be our first inkling of what the Buddha meant, when he
said non-self (anatta) is the way out of dukkha.
Because it is
difficult for the mind to stay on the meditation subject, we have to use
everything that arises for insight. Eventually the mind becomes clear and
sharp and is no longer bothered by the outer manifestations that touch
upon it, such as sound and thought, which are the most common ones.
Finally a depth of concentration is reached.
When
unpleasant feelings arise let us use them for insight. We didn't ask for
the feelings, why are they ours? They are certainly changeable, they get
worse or better, they move their position, and they give us a very good
indication that the body is dukkha.
The body
isn't doing anything except sitting, and yet we have dukkha, for
the simple reason of not liking the feeling as it is. When we use the
unpleasant feeling to actually realize the first and second noble truths,
we've come nearer to the Dhamma in our hearts. The first noble truth being
the noble truth of dukkha, the second being the reason for
dukkha, namely craving. In this case, we're craving to get rid of the
unpleasant feelings. If we were totally accepting of the feeling, not
making any value judgments, there would be no dukkha.
We can try
letting go of this craving for a moment; anyone with some strength of mind
can do that. Just accepting the feeling as it is, not disliking it. Then
there's no dukkha, for just that moment. That will be a profound
insight experience, because it will show without the shadow of a doubt,
that if we drop our desires, dukkha disappears. Naturally when the
body feels uncomfortable, it's difficult to drop the craving to get rid of
that discomfort. But anybody can do it for just one moment, and it's an
essential and in-depth experience of the Dhamma.
When we are
able to step back to observe our thought processes we realize that the
mind is continually thinking. It may take from 5-10 minutes to become
aware of that, for someone who hasn't practiced meditation previously. For
an experienced meditator it may only take a second or two. Next we can see
what kind of thinking we are indulging in and the more often we see it,
the less enraptured we'll be with it. We become aware of the fact that
this is the way the human mind acts, not just ours, but everybody's and
we'll know the truth about the mind. There is nothing else to be seen
except that. When we observe that the thinking goes on and that it is
insignificant, it will be so much easier to let go. We also see how very
fleeting thoughts are, how they come and go all the time. We'll know from
experience then, that no real happiness is to be found in something so
short-lived, yet the whole world is trying to achieve happiness that way.
We can't even remember what we thought a moment ago, how can that bring
happiness? Such insights make it possible to drop the distractions and get
back to the meditation subject.
We are using
the two approaches of calm and insight in conjunction with each other.
When calm is firmly established, insight arises spontaneously. It's
important to realize that calm meditation is essential. If isn't as if
some people like it and others don't.
If the ocean
has high waves and we want to look beneath the surface to see what can be
found there, we can't recognize anything at all while the waves are
rising. There is too much movement, all is stirred up and nothing is to be
seen. When the waves subside and the ocean surface becomes calm and
transparent, then we can look underneath the surface of the water and see
sand, coral and multi-colored fish. It's the same in the mind. When the
mind has all the waves and motions of thinking, that churning in the mind
makes it impossible to see absolute reality. On the contrary, the mind
refuses to look beyond ordinary knowing. But when the mind becomes totally
calm, then there is no value judgment, and we can see easily what lies
underneath the surface.
In order to
understand the Buddha's teaching, we have to get below the surface,
otherwise our insights will be superficial. The calm mind is the means for
delving below relative reality. While we are trying to become calm, at the
same time we're objectively examining all that arises, so that there is
more and more support for letting go of the thinking. The less we believe
in our thoughts, the less we expect of them and the happier we will be to
let them go. Then we get an inkling of what inner peace and happiness
mean.
These inner
feelings are most pronounced in meditation, but can be carried into daily
living in a milder form, primarily because the mind knows it can always
return to peace and happiness in meditation, without having to depend on
any situation or any person. Worldly affairs no longer have the former
sting in them; they are just happening, that's all, the same as thinking
and feeling are arising and ceasing, without an owner or a maker.
III. Awake
and Aware
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It is
important to experience and not to believe. In order to do that, we have
to pay attention. In the famous and often quoted Kalama Sutta, the Buddha
gives ten points which are not suitable as criteria to follow a teacher or
a spiritual path. All of them have to do with a belief system because of
traditional lineage or because of sacred books. Not to believe but to find
out for ourselves is the often repeated injunction of the Buddha. Unless
we do that, we cannot have an inner vision, which is the first step that
takes us on to the noble path.
An inner
vision is an understood experience. Without that, insight cannot arise.
That holds true for small matters in daily life, just as it holds true for
the deepest and most profound understanding of the Buddha's teaching. If
for instance somebody is not pleased with us and we don't understand why,
we shall have that same disharmony happen to us over and over again. We
need to realize that we may have said or done something to cause that
displeasure. This is a small matter showing the need for understanding an
experience.
If we think
these happenings are something outside of ourselves, we can't change our
attitudes. Practicing Dhamma means constantly changing ourselves to reach
out towards the sublime. If change were not possible, the Buddha would
have given a lifetime of teaching in vain.
Unless we pay
total attention to every detail we'll never change towards the sublime.
Attention to detail is the core of mindfulness. Most people lack the
practice and also the instructions to be truly mindful. It's one thing to
read about it, but an entirely different matter to do it. Mindfulness is
the essence of understanding, because without it there is no seeing into
the heart of any phenomena.
Watching the
breath means "knowing exactly". Mindfulness is not judgmental, nor
discriminating, nor telling stories. Mindfulness knows when there is
concentration and when there isn't when the mind wanders off and when the
mind becomes peaceful. Perfect mindfulness knows every moment that is
occurring.
When we pay
attention to our feelings and do not react to them but only observe, then
we're using the second foundation of mindfulness, vedananupassana
(mindfulness of feeling). When we know we're thinking, it's
cittanupassana (mindfulness of thought) and when we know what the
content of the thought is, it's dhammanupassana (mindfulness of
mind objects). If we're not paying attention, we're not really awake. We
need to practice clear attention to any one of these at all times.
It is
possible that in meditation the mind becomes concentrated. If there is a
feeling of peacefulness, one has to know that quite clearly. Without
realizing what is happening, one cannot go further, because one doesn't
know where one is at. This is an important detail of meditation, knowing
exactly what's happening and being able to verbalize it after the
occurrence. The verbalization is the understood experience, and occurs
naturally after the experience. This holds true for any mind-state and for
any feeling. The Dhamma is the Buddha's verbalized experience. Unless we
can do that with our own experiences, we are left with a belief system,
which can dull the mind. But meditation is to sharpen the mind. The
mindful mind is a sharpened axe, with a sharp and finely honed blade which
can cut through all our illusions. When we sit in meditation, we can get
to know the disturbances of our own mind: such as the dull mind that
doesn't know what's going on, or the sleepy mind, the distracted or the
resisting mind, that doesn't want to obey. That is mindfulness of mind
objects.
Like most
human beings, we have a distracted mind, geared so much towards trying to
resist the unpleasant and crave the pleasant, that this pattern is very
difficult to change. If we find ourselves resisting the unpleasant,
seeking the pleasant, we just know that this is a normal habit pattern.
This is how this little spaceship earth operates, and how our economy
works. Do you know anybody who's blissfully happy because of it? It is an
impossible venture, it is a guaranteed failure, yet everybody is still
trying. We have all been trying long enough, we can give it up, at least
for the time we're meditation. However it is possible to get rid of
dukkha, but not by eliminating the unpleasant sensations, only by
getting rid of our reaction to them. This is the most important primary
entrance into the spiritual path. Unless this is perfectly understood, the
rest will not fall into place. We won't get rid of the unpleasantness of
sitting, or of mosquitoes, or of anything unpleasant we may encounter. All
is mind-made and therefore mind-reacted. Dukkha disappears when our
reactions disappear.
Unless we
know that we are the creators of our own dukkha, Dhamma remains a
mystery. We start practicing when we no longer blame our surroundings,
other people, the political situation, the economy or the weather. We see
only our own reactions. Naturally our reactions aren't immediately going
to be all favorable and wholesome. That will take a while. But at least we
can start doing something about ourselves.
Mindfulness
needs to be used not only in our meditation practice, but also every time
we move, feel or think in our daily life. While awake, mindfulness has to
be our primary objective. One has to come to terms with oneself. Only then
will the world make sense one day. The universe is this mind and body. We
find out what this mind and body are all about, and we will know the
universe and its underlying truth. All is distinctively the same, but we
have to know what it is.
When we come
out of meditation, we should be aware of opening our eyes, moving our
body, of everything we are doing. Why? First of all, it will keep us from
thinking unwholesome, negative thoughts. It facilitates meditation. The
mind needs to be kept in check and not allowed to run wild. The ordinary,
unpracticed mind is like a wild bull running around in a garden. It can
make a mess of the garden in no time. That's what our minds are doing.
They're making an awful mess of this world we live in. We don't even have
to read the newspapers to know about it. It's to be seen everywhere, and
comes from our own minds. All of us are included, except the enlightened
ones. A wild mind can't meditate. It has to be caught, kept in check, and
a halter put on. Every time it runs away, we bring it back with
mindfulness, like training a wild horse which in its wild state cannot
benefit anyone. If the horse is tamed and trained it can be extremely
useful. How much more this is true of the mind!
Mindfulness
of the body means that we know the movements of all parts. As we watch
ourselves, we will see that there is mind and body. The mind giving the
orders, the body following suit. We can recognize too that sometimes the
body can't obey because it is weak. This is our first entrance into
insight, realizing there are mind and body and the mind being the more
important one. The difference between a trained and an untrained person is
the understood experience.
Mindfulness
which extends to the body movements extends to the other aspects of
mindfulness as well. If, for instance, we are thinking about the future we
are no longer paying attention to the body; instead we can pay attention
to the thought process. We know that we are thinking, and are making
kamma. The thoughts are the mental formations, as well as the kamma
formations. We are the owners of our kamma. Whatever we think, that we
will be. It's an impersonal process which has nothing to do with any
particular entity.
Then we can
become aware of the content of our thoughts, which means knowing whether
it is wholesome or not. We can learn to drop any negative thinking and
replace it. This is where our meditation training comes in, which is not
divorced from outer activities. When we pay attention to the breath in
meditation and a thought intervenes, we learn to let go of the thought and
come back to the breath. The same procedure is used in daily life to let
go of unwholesome thoughts. We substitute at that time with a wholesome
thought, just as we substitute with the breath in meditation.
Mindfulness
of the thinking process is what the Buddha Named the "four supreme
efforts."[1] They constitute the heart of the
purification process. The spiritual path is the path of purification and
hinges on mindfulness. "There's only one way for the purification of
beings, for the overcoming of dukkha, for the final elimination of
pain, grief and lamentation, for entering the noble path, for realizing
Nibbana, that's mindfulness." (Words of the Buddha). To practice the
purification process is necessary not only for one's own peace of mind,
for adding to the peace in the world, but also in order to be able to
meditate.
The hope that
one might sit down on a pillow, watch the breath and become concentrated,
is a myth. One has to have the mind in proper shape for it. Therefore, we
must practice these four supreme efforts not only while we are meditating,
but in every-day life. We will gain inner peace which everybody is looking
for and very few people ever find.
The first
effort is not to let an unwholesome thought arise which has not yet
arisen. The requires sharp mindfulness. A thought which has not yet arisen
creates waves ahead of it. To realize that these waves are boding no good,
needs much attention and practice. The second effort, not to continue an
unwholesome thought which has already arisen, can be done by anyone of
good will, if it is understood that there is nobody else to blame.
Unwholesome thinking is not due to outer triggers, but results strictly
from our own defilements.
The third
step is to make a wholesome thought arise which has not yet arisen. This
means that we continually watch over our mind and encourage positive,
wholesome thoughts where none are present even under the most trying
circumstances.
Finally, to
make a wholesome thought, which has already arisen, continue. In the
meditation practice, this concerns our meditation subject. But in daily
life it means our mind's reaction. If we have some sensitivity towards
ourselves, we can feel that there is a disturbance within when unwholesome
thinking arises, a feeling of resistance. Unwholesome thoughts have been
thought of so often for so many years, that they have become part and
parcel of our thinking process. It takes mindfulness and determination to
let go.
In meditation
we become aware that our unwholesome thoughts are not caused by someone or
something external. Then we gain the power of mind to drop what we don't
want, to keep and substitute with what is useful for us. These four
supreme efforts are the fourth foundation of mindfulness concerned with
the contents of our thoughts. If everybody in the world were practicing
this, it would be a better world to live in.
Our inner
being manifests in feeling, which arises through our sense contacts.
Thinking is also a sense contact. Unwholesome thinking produces unpleasant
feelings, such as being ill at ease, or unhappy. Seeing, hearing, tasting,
touching, smelling are the five outer senses. Thinking is the inner one.
All of them make contact and produce a feeling. There is the eye and the
eye object. When both are in good condition, the eye consciousness arises
and seeing results. The sense base, the sense object and the sense
consciousness meet. When we know how this being, which we call "me",
operates, we can stop the pre-programmed print-out, that's always
answering the same way. It is quite possible to predict how a person will
react to any given stimulus, because we have a program which has never
been interrupted yet. To discontinue it, we first have to know that there
is a program and what it consists of.
For instance,
we have the hearing base, which is the ear drum; then there is sound. When
the hearing consciousness arises, because both base and object are
present, hearing results and from that a feeling arises. The ear can only
hear sound, the eye can only see form and color. The mind does all the
explaining. Everybody has a slightly different explanation, so that nobody
sees or hears anything alike. When one man sees a woman, and sees her form
and color, the mind says "isn't she beautiful, I must marry her." When I
see that same woman, I don't think anything like that. Yet everyone tries
to convince the people around them that what they themselves are seeing
and hearing is correct. Because they often can't convince others, they
start shooting or persecuting them.
Thinking is
also a sense contact. There is the brain base and there are ideas. The
mind consciousness arises, contacting the idea and thinking starts. From
that a feeling results. If we think we love every being, whether we
actually can do it or not, we certainly get a warm pleasant feeling from
the thought. By the same token, if we think we hate a person, we get a
cold and distant feeling. Now comes the reaction to the feeling, which is
either wanting/craving or not wanting/rejecting. By being attentive to
ourselves, we can experience that quite clearly. The reaction to the
feeling is our renewed entry into duality and dukkha. At the same
time it provides us with the doorway out of all difficulties. If for once
we don't react, but know a feeling just as a feeling, if we can do that,
mindfulness has been established. We also gain the confidence that we can
do it again, and are actually practicing spiritual purification. That is
an important inner conviction. The Buddha said we need both, study and
practice. It helps us to know something of what the Buddha taught. But if
we don't practice, then we are only parrots or hypocrites, proclaiming
something we have no personal experience with.
Through our
practice of mindfulness we become aware of the feelings which arise when
we make sense contacts. Feelings happen all the time and need to be
recognized so that we can change our instinctive way of living to a
deliberate way of being alive. Instinctively we are a constant reactor.
Deliberately we become an actor.
Probably the
most important lesson we can learn is to keep our mindfulness going in our
every-day activities. We can practice wherever we are, at home, marketing,
in the office, writing letters, telephoning, any time at all. The
meditation itself gives us the impetus, showing how awareness removes the
obstacles inherent in our viewpoints. We cannot see the whole, only parts.
We see what is around us, but we never see beyond that. With mindfulness
comes an opening, where everything seems to fall into place and has an
interconnection. We lose our exaggerated sense of self-importance, and can
unite more with all manifestations. All these are still side issues.
Mindfulness means knowing. As we know and really experience, we can prove,
eventually, the four noble truths to ourselves. Then our work is
completed.
Mindfulness
has, as one of its factors, the ability to be one pointed. We do not
become foggy or distracted, but can keep the mind in its place. We have to
realize that mind obstructions are a human calamity and not a personal
one. This understanding helps us to patiently endure and gradually change.
IV. Supreme
Efforts
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We can notice
fairly easily what our mind does. It reflects and reacts and it often has
fantasies and also moods. Anyone who doesn't meditate will believe in all
of that. Even those who do meditate might still believe in the reactions
of their own mind to the outer stimuli, or might believe the moods which
come into the mind are to be taken seriously, that whatever the mind is
doing is due to an outside occurrence and not to an inner reaction. This
is easily seen if we watch our thinking process not only in meditation but
in daily living.
The Buddha
gave very exact instructions how to counteract any unskillful mind states
and produce skillful ones. They can briefly be expressed as "avoiding,"
"overcoming," "developing," and "maintaining," and are called the four
supreme efforts, which have been briefly mentioned before. They are part
of the 37 factors of enlightenment, so must be part of our practice. When
perfected they are part of the enlightenment process.
You may have
heard the expression "Nibbana and Samsara are both in the same
place." It is not a true saying, because there is no such "place." But
Nibbana, liberation, emancipation, enlightenment, and Samsara, the
round of birth and death, how can they be together? In a way they can,
because they are both in the mind, in everybody's mind. Except that
everyone is only aware of one of them, namely that which makes us continue
in the round of birth and death; not only when this body disappears and it
is called death or when a body reappears and it is called birth. But there
is constant birth and death in our every moment of existence. There is the
birth of skillful and unskillful thoughts and the dying away of them.
There is the birth of feelings, pleasant, unpleasant or neutral, and the
dying away of them. There is the birth of the arising of this body and its
dying away moment after moment, except that we are not mindful enough to
become aware of that.
We can see
this quite clearly when we look at a photo of ourselves taken 10 or 20
years ago. We look entirely different from what we see in the mirror now.
But it doesn't follow that a body takes a leap of 20 years and then
changes itself suddenly. It has changed moment by moment until after a
longer time-span, it is finally noticeable to us. With more mindfulness we
could have known it all along, because there is constant birth and death
in the body, the same as with thoughts and feelings. This is Samsara,
the round of birth and death within us, due to our craving to keep or
renew what we think is "me." When there is liberation, that craving
ceases, whatever dies is left to die.
Although we
have the potential for liberation, our awareness is not able to reach it,
because we are concerned with what we already know. We are habit-formed
and habit-prone and every meditator becomes aware of the mind habits with
their old and tried reactions to outside triggers. They have not
necessarily been useful in the past, but they are still repeated out of
habit. The same applies to our moods, which are arising and passing away
and have no other significance than a cloud has in the sky, which only
denotes the kind of weather there is, without any universal truth to that.
Our moods only denote the kind of weather our mind is fabricating, if it
believes the mood.
The four
supreme efforts are, in the first place, the avoiding of unwholesome,
unskillful thought processes. If we look at them as unskillful, we can
accept the fact of learning a new skill more easily. Avoiding means we do
not let certain thoughts arise, neither reactions to moods, nor to outside
triggers. If we find ourselves habitually reacting in the same way to the
same kind of situation, we may be forced to avoid such situations, so that
we can finally gain the insight which needs to be culled from it. While we
are reacting to a situation or mood, we can't assess it dispassionately,
because our reactions overpowers the mind.
Avoiding, in
a Dhamma sense, means to avoid the unskillful thought; in a practical
sense we may have to avoid whatever arouses such mind states in us. That,
however, must not go to the length of running away as the slightest
provocation, which is a well known, yet unsuccessful method of getting out
of unpleasant reactions. Habitually running away from situations, which
create unwholesome reactions in us, will not bring about a peaceful mind.
Only if there is one particular trigger, which arouses unskillful
responses in us over and over again, we may have to move away from it
without blaming anyone. We just realize that we have not yet been able to
master ourselves under certain circumstances. Just as we don't blame the
unpleasant feeling anywhere in the body, but realize that we haven't
mastered our non-reaction to dukkha yet, and therefore must change
our posture.
It amounts to
exactly the same thing. One is a physical move, the other is a mental one.
All it means is that we haven't quite mastered a particular situation yet.
It brings us to the realization that there is still more to be learned
about ourselves. Blaming anything in our outside of ourselves is useless,
it only aggravates the situation and adds more unwholesome thinking to it.
In order to
avoid unskillful reactions in the mind, we have to be attentive and know
the way our mind works before we verbalize. We can learn about that in
meditation. Awareness is the prime mover in meditation. It isn't viable or
useful to have calm and peaceful mind states without being completely
aware of how we attained them, remained in them and came out of them.
Having learned this through our meditative practice, enables us to realize
how our mind works in daily life, before it says anything, such as
possibly: "I can't stand this situation" or "I hate this person." When
that happens, an unwholesome state has already been established.
Before the
mind is allowed to fall into this trap, a dense and unpleasant feeling can
be noticed, which acts as a warning that an unwholesome mind state is
approaching, which can be dropped before it has even established itself.
It is much easier to let go before the negativity has taken hold but it is
harder to recognize. When we notice that a mind state is approaching which
does not seem to be accompanied by peace and happiness, we can be sure it
will be unwholesome. The more we train ourselves to be mindful of our mind
states, the more we realize the unhappiness we cause ourselves and others
through unskillful thinking.
When we have
not been able to avoid an unwholesome mind, we have to practice to
overcome it. Because of the difficulty of becoming aware in time to avoid
negativities, we have to be very clear on how to overcome them. Dropping a
thought is an action and not a passive reaction, yet it is difficult to
do, because the mind needs something to grasp. In meditation we need a
subject, such as the breath or the feelings/sensations to hold onto,
before the mind can become calm and peaceful. When we want to overcome
unskillful mind states, it is easier to substitute with wholesome
thinking, than just trying to let go of unwholesomeness.
If we
entertain the negative mind states for any length of time, they become
more and more at home. As they make themselves comfortable, we are more
and more inclined to believe them and finally come out with thoughts such
as "I always hate people who don't agree with me" or "I always get nervous
about thunder." These statements are designed to show one's own unchanging
character, giving our ego an extra boost. The only reason these states
might have become ingrained in our character is that having entertained
negativities for so long, one can no longer imagine to be without them.
Yet these are nothing but unskillful mind states, which can and need to be
changed. The quicker we substitute, the better it is for our own peace of
mind.
If we have
dislike or rejection concerning a person, we may remember something good
about that person and be able to substitute the negative thought with
something concretely positive. Everyone is endowed with both qualities,
good and evil, and if we pick on the negative, then we will constantly be
confronted with that aspect, rather than the opposite. With some people
this will be more difficult that with others. They are our tests, so to
say. Nobody gets away in this life without such tests. Life is an adult
education class with frequent examinations, which are being thrown at us
at any time. We are not told in advance, what is in store for us, so we
should be prepared all the time.
As we learn
the skill of substitution and do it successfully once, we gain confidence
in our own ability. There is no reason when why we cannot repeat this
whenever needed. The relief we feel is all the incentive we need for
practice.
When we are
confronted with situations which we find difficult to handle, we can
remember that we are faced with a learning experience. Overcoming
unwholesome mind states needs mind power, which we develop through our
meditation practice. If we are not yet able to keep our attention in
meditation where we want it to be, we will not be able yet to change our
mind when we want to do so. The more skill we develop in meditation, the
easier it will be for us to either "avoid" or "overcome." By the same
token, as we practice substitution in daily living, we assist our
meditation. When we realize that our mind is not a solid entity which has
to react in certain ways, but is a movable, changeable phenomenon, which
can be clear and illuminated, then we will more and more try to protect it
from unwholesomeness. It is often a revelation to a new meditator to find
out that the mind is not a fixed and believable reactor, but can be
influenced and changed at will.
To develop
wholesome states of mind means that we try to cultivate these, when they
have not arisen yet. If the mind is neutrally engaged or has a tendency to
weigh, judge and criticize, feel hurt or be ego-centered, we deliberately
counteract these tendencies to develop skillful mind states. We
acknowledge that all negative states are not conducive to our own
happiness, peace and harmony. When we develop loving-kindness, compassion,
sympathetic joy and equanimity, we experience that these states are
conducive to our own inner well-being. Obviously we will then try again
and again to cultivate the mind states which result in personal
contentment. Developing them from that understanding alone, that the
wholesome states are good for us, is a powerful insight. When our mind is
at peace, we realize that while there are innumerable unwholesome
situations in the world, if we have an unwholesome reaction to them, that
only doubles the dukkha. It will neither relieve the situation, nor
be helpful to anyone.
If we develop
a capacity for seeing the positive and using whatever arises as a learning
situation, trying to keep the four supreme emotions, mentioned above, in
mind, then there remains only the last effort, namely to maintain skillful
mind states. Anyone who has not reached full liberation from all
underlying tendencies will not be able to maintain positive states at all
times, but our mindfulness can be sharp enough to tell us when we are not
succeeding. That is the awareness we need to effect changes. When we are
not able to maintain wholesomeness, we can always try again. Should we
start blaming ourselves or others, however, we are adding a second
negative state of mind and are blocking our progress.
A skill can
be learned. We have all learned many skills in this life. This is the sort
of ability well worth cultivating, more important than proficiencies. This
is not a character trait we either possess or lack. Everybody's mind is
capable of developing the wholesome and letting go of the unwholesome. But
that also doesn't mean that we find everything wonderful and beautiful
from now on. That too is not realistic. That which can be practiced is,
that although there is unwholesomeness within and without, dislike is not
an effective reaction to bring peace and happiness. The pinnacle of all
emotional states is equanimity, even-mindedness, which is developed
through our meditation practice and based on insight. It is our tool in
daily living to develop and maintain wholesome mind states.
It is neither
useful to suppress nor to pretend by thinking "I ought to be" or "I should
be." Only awareness of what is happening in our mind and learning the
skill of changing our mind is called for. Eventually our mind will be a
finely tuned instrument, the only one in the whole of the universe that
can liberate us from all dukkha. All of us have that instrument and
the guidelines of the Buddha teach us the skill to use this instrument to
the best advantage; not to believe its moods and reactions to outer
stimuli, but to watch and protect it and realize its potential for
complete liberation.
If we want a
good tool, we need to look after it in the best possible manner. This
means not letting any dirt particles accumulate, but to clean it up as
quickly as possible. The same criterion applies to our mind. This is
probably the hardest skill to learn, which is the reason so few people do
it. but a meditator is on the right path towards just that, by realizing
that the mind cannot be believed implicitly, being much too fanciful and
fleeting.
The four
supreme efforts are called "supreme," not only because they are supremely
difficult, but also supremely beneficial. A serious meditator wants to
transcend the human realm while still in human form and these efforts are
our challenge. They are so well explained by the Buddha that we can
clearly see the difficulties we are faced with and the reasons why we are
still roaming about in Samsara. But we don't have to continue that
unendingly. Knowing the path and the way to tread upon it, we have the
opportunity to become free of all fetters.
V. Expansion
in Consciousness
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Just as we're
capable of changing the body at will, the same applies to the mind.
Changing the body can occur when we eat less and get thin, eat more and
get fat, drink too much alcohol and spoil our liver, smoke too much and
sicken our lungs. We can exercise to get muscles, or train to run fast or
jump high, or to become very efficient at tennis or cricket. The body is
able to do many things which ordinary people usually cannot do, because
they haven't trained for that. We know, for example, of people who can
jump two or three times further than is common, or run ten times faster
than anyone else. We may have seen people doing stunts with their bodies,
which look miraculous. There are also people who can use their minds in
seemingly miraculous ways, which are really just due to training.
Meditation is
the only training there is for the mind. Physical training is usually
connected with physical discipline. The mind needs mental discipline,
practice in meditation.
First we can
change our mind from unwholesome to wholesome thinking. Just like a person
who wants to be an athlete has to start at the beginning of body training,
the same needs to be done for mind training. First we cope with the
ordinary, later with the extraordinary. The recollection of our own death
brings us the realization that all that is happening will be finished very
soon, because all of us are going to die. Even though we may not know the
exact date, it is guaranteed to happen. With the death contemplation in
mind, it doesn't matter so much any more what goes on around us, since all
is only important for a very limited time.
We may be
able to see that only our kamma-making matters, doing the best we can
every single day, every single moment. Helping others takes pride of
place. There is no substitute for that. Someone else can benefit from our
skills and possessions since we cannot keep them and cannot take them with
us. We might as well give all away as quickly as possible.
One of the
laws of the universe is the more one gives away, the more one gets. Nobody
believes it, that's why everyone is trying to make more money and own more
things, yet it is a law of cause and effect. If we would believe it and
act accordingly we would soon find out. However it will only be effective
if the giving is done in purity. We can give our time, our caring, our
concern for others' well-being. We have the immediate benefit of happiness
in our own heart, when we see the joy we have given to someone else. This
is about the only satisfaction we can expect in this life which is of a
nature that does not disappear quickly, because we can recollect the deed
and our own happiness.
If we really
believe in our impending death, not just use the words, our attitude
towards people and situations changes completely. We are no longer the
same person then. The one we have been until now hasn't brought us
complete satisfaction, contentment and peacefulness. We might as well
become a different person, with a new outlook. We no longer try to make
anything last, because we know the temporary nature of our involvement.
Consequently nothing has the same significance anymore.
It could be
compared to inviting people to our home for a meal. We are worried and
anxious whether the food will taste just right, whether all the comforts
are there and nothing missing. The house should be immaculate for the
guests. While they're visiting we are extremely concerned that they're
getting everything they could possibly want. Afterwards we are concerned
whether they like it at our house, were happy there, are going to tell
other friends that it was a pleasant visit. These are our attitudes
because we own the place. If we are a guest we don't care what food is
being served, because that's up to the hostess. We don't worry whether
everything is in apple-pie order because it's not our house.
This body is
not our house, no matter how long we live. It's a temporary arrangement of
no significance. Nothing belongs to us, we're guests here. Maybe we'll be
present for another week or year, or ten or twenty years. But being a
guest, what can it matter how everything works? The only thing we can do
when we are guest in someone's house, is trying to be pleasant and helpful
to the people we're with. All else is totally insignificant, otherwise our
consciousness will remain in the marketplace.
Doesn't it
only matter to elevate our consciousness and awareness to where we can see
beyond our immediate concerns? There is always the same thing going on:
getting up, eating breakfast, washing, dressing, thinking and planning,
cooking, buying things, talking to people, going to work, going to bed,
getting up... over and over again. Is that enough for a lifetime? All of
us are trying to find something within that daily grind which will give us
joy. But nothing lasts and moreover all are connected with reaching out to
get something. If we were to remember each morning that death is certain,
but now have another day to live, gratitude and determination can arise to
do something useful with that day.
Our second
recollection may concern how to change our mind from enmity, hurtfulness
and unhappiness, to their opposites. Repeated remembering makes it
possible to change the mind gradually. The body doesn't change overnight,
to become athletic, and neither does the mind change instantly. But if we
don't continually train it, it's just going to stay the same it has always
been, which is not conductive to a harmonious and peaceful life. Most
people find a lot of unpleasantness, anxiety and fear in their lives. Fear
is a human condition, based on our ego delusion. We are afraid that our
ego will be destroyed and annihilated.
This
willingness to change our mind should make it possible to live each day
meaningfully, which is the difference between just being alive and living.
We would do at least one thing each day, which either entails spiritual
growth for ourselves or helpfulness and consideration for others,
preferably both. If we add one meaningful day to the next, we wind up with
a meaningful life. Otherwise we have an egocentric life, which can never
be satisfying. If we forget about our own desires and rejections and are
just concerned with spiritual growth and eventual emancipation, and being
helpful to other people, then our dukkha is greatly reduced. It
reaches a point where it is only the underlying movement in all of
existence and no longer personal suffering and unhappiness. As long as we
suffer and are unhappy, our lives are not very useful. Having grief, pain
and lamentation does not mean we are very sensitive, but rather that we
haven't been able to find a solution.
We spend
hours and hours, buying food, preparing it, eating it, washing up
afterwards, and thinking about the next meal. Twenty minutes of
recollection on how we should live, should not be taxing our time.
Naturally, we can also spend much more time on such contemplations, which
are a way to give the mind a new direction. Without training, the mind is
heavy and not very skillful, but when we give the mind a new direction,
then we learn to protect our own happiness. This is not connected with
getting what we want and getting rid of what we don't want. It's a skill
in the mind to realize what is helpful and happiness producing.
This new
direction, which arises from contemplation can be put into action. What
can we actually do? We have all heard far too many words which sound
right, but words alone won't accomplish anything. There has to be an
underlying realization that these words require mental or physical action.
The Buddha mentioned that if we hear a Dhamma discourse and have
confidence in its truth, first we must remember the words. Then we can see
whether we are able to do what is required of us.
If we
contemplate to be free of enmity, we can recollect such a determination
again and again. Now comes the next step: How can we actualize that? When
going about our daily life we have to be very attentive whether any enmity
is arising, and if so, to substitute with love and compassion. That is the
training of the mind. The mind doesn't feel so burdened then, so bogged
down in its own pre-determined course because we realize change is
possible. When the mind feels lighter and clearer, it can expand.
Activating the teachings of the Buddha changes the awareness of the mind,
so that the everyday, ordinary activities are no longer so significant.
They are seen to be necessary to keep the body alive and the mind
interested in the manifold proliferations that exist in the world.
The
realization arises that if we have been able to change our mind even that
much, there may be more to the universe than we have ever been able to
touch upon with the ordinary mind. The determination may come to make the
mind extraordinary. Just as in an athlete, enormous feats of balance,
discipline and strength of the body are possible, just so it is feasible
for the mind. The Buddha talked about expanded awareness as a result of
proper concentration, time and time again. Right concentration means a
change of consciousness because we are then not connected to the usual,
relative knowing.
Being able to
change our mind's direction, we are no longer so enmeshed in the ordinary
affairs, but know that there must be more. Through having been
disciplined, strengthened and balanced, a mind can perform feats of mental
awareness which seem quite extraordinary, but are just a result of
training. It means getting out of the mental rut. If we have a wet
driveway and drive a truck over it time and time again, the ruts get
deeper and deeper and in the end the truck may be stuck fast. Such are our
habitual responses that we have in our everyday affairs. Practicing
meditation lifts us out of those ruts because the mind gets a new
dimension. Contemplation and resulting action make a new pathway in our
lives, where the old ruts are left behind... Those were a constant
reaction to our sense stimuli, of hearing, seeing, smelling, tasting,
touching and thinking. It's a great pity to use a good human life just to
be a reactor. It is much more useful and helpful to become an actor, which
means deliberate thinking, saying and doing.
It is
possible to eventually have the kind of concentration where the meditation
subject is no longer needed. The meditation subject is nothing but a key,
or we can also call it a hook to hang the mind on, so that it will not
attend to worldly affairs. When concentration has arisen, it can be
likened to the key having finally found the keyhole and the door being
unlocked. When we unlock the door of true samadhi we find a house
with eight rooms, which are the eight meditative absorptions (jhanas).
Having been able to enter the first room, there is no reason why, with
practice, determination and diligence, we cannot gradually enter into all
of them. Here the mind actually lets go of the thinking process as we know
it and reverts to a state of experiencing.
The first
thing that happens when concentration has come together is a sense of well
being. Unfortunately there is a mistaken view prevalent that the
meditative absorptions are neither possible nor necessary. This view is
contrary to the Buddha's teaching. Any instructions he has ever given for
the pathway to liberation always included the meditative absorptions. They
are the eight steps on the noble eightfold path (samma-samadhi). It
is also incorrect to believe that it is no longer possible to attain true
concentration; many people do so without even realizing it, and need
support and direction to further their efforts. Meditation needs to
include the meditative absorptions because they are the expansion of
consciousness providing access to a totally different universe than we
have ever realized.
The mental
states that arise through the meditative absorptions make it possible to
live one's daily life with a sense of what is significant and what is not.
Having seen, for instance, that it is possible to grow large trees, one no
longer believes that trees are always small, even though the trees in
one's own backyard may be tiny, because the soil is poor. If one has seen
large trees, one knows they exist, and one may even try to find a place
where they grow. The same applies to our mental states. Having seen the
possibility of expanded consciousness, one no longer believes that
ordinary consciousness is all there is, or that the breath is all there is
to meditation.
The breathe
is the hook that we hang the mind on, so that we can open the door to true
meditation. Having opened the door, we experience physical well-being,
manifesting in many different ways. It may be a strong or a mild
sensation, but it is always connected with a pleasant feeling. Of that
pleasure the Buddha said: "This is a pleasure I will allow myself." Unless
one experiences the joy of the meditative state, which is independent of
the world, one will never resign from the world, but will continue to see
the world as one's home. Only when one realizes that the joy in the
meditative state is independent of all worldly conditions, will one
finally be able to say: "The world and its manifold attractions are not
interesting any more" so that dispassion will set in. Otherwise why should
one resign from that which occasionally does give pleasure and joy, if one
has nothing else? How can one do that? It is impossible to let go of all
the joys and pleasures which the world offers, if one has nothing to
replace them. This is the first reason why in the Buddha's teaching the
meditative absorptions are of the essence. We can't let go when we are
still under the impression that with this body and these senses we can get
what we're looking for, namely happiness.
The Buddha
encourages us to look for happiness, but we need to look in the right
place. He said we would be able to protect our own happiness. Even the
very first instance of gaining physical pleasure in meditation already
illuminates the fact that something inside ourselves gives joy and
happiness. The physical well-being also arouses pleasurable interest which
helps to keep us on the meditation pillow. Although it is a physical
sensation, it is not the same sort of feeling that we are familiar with.
It is different because it has arisen from a different source. Ordinary
pleasant physical feelings come from touch contact. This one comes from
concentration. Obviously, having different causes, they must also be
different in their results. Touch is gross, concentration is subtle.
Therefore the meditative feeling has a more subtle spiritual quality than
the pleasant feeling one can get through touch. Knowing clearly that the
only condition necessary for happiness is concentration, we will refrain
from our usual pursuits of seeking pleasant people, tasty food, better
weather, more wealth and not squander our mental energy on those. This is,
therefore, a necessary first step towards emancipation.
We are now
entering mind states that go beyond the everyday, worldly affairs... We
all know the mind that is connected with ordinary matters. Such a mind
worries about all sorts of things, is anxious, has plans, memories, hopes,
dreams, likes, dislikes and reactions. It's a very busy mind. For the
first time we may become acquainted with a mind which doesn't contain all
these aspects. Pleasurable well-being has no thinking attached to it, it's
an experience. Here we finally realize that the kind of thinking we're
aware of will not give us the results we had hoped for. It is just good
enough to project a willingness to meditate. We learn, even from that very
first step, that the world cannot do for us what concentration can do.
Happiness independent of outer conditions is far more satisfying than
anything to be found in the world. We are also shown that the mind has the
ability to expand into a different consciousness with which we had no
previous contact, so that we gain first-hand experience of the fact that
meditation is the means for spiritual emancipation.
Because of
having had this pleasurable feeling, an inner joy arises. This gives the
meditator the assurance that the pathway towards "non-self" is a pathway
of joy and not of dukkha. Thereby the natural resistance to
"non-self" is greatly lessened. Most people resist the idea that they are
"nobody," even after they have understood it intellectually. But being
able to experience these first two aspects of meditation, gives a clear
indication that this is only possible when the "self," which is always
thinking, is temporarily buried. Because when the self is active, it
immediately says "Oh, isn't that nice," and the concentration is finished.
It has to be and experience where nothing says "I am experiencing." The
explanation and understanding of what one has experienced comes later.
This is a
clear realization that, without "self," the inner joy is a much greater
and more profound nature than any happiness one has known in this life.
Therefore the determination to really come to grips with the Buddha's
teachings will come to fruition. Until then, most people pick out a few
aspects of the Dhamma, which they've heard about, and think that is
sufficient. It may devotion, chanting, festivals, doing good works, moral
behavior, all of which is fine, but the reality of the teaching is a great
mosaic in which all these different pieces fall together into one huge,
all encompassing whole. And the central core is "non-self" (anatta).
If we use only a few of these mosaic pieces we will never get the whole
picture. But being able to meditate makes a great deal of difference in
one's approach to that whole conglomerate of teaching, which encompasses
body and mind and completely changes the person who practices like that.
We have to
base our meditative ability on our daily practice. We cannot hope to sit
down and meditate successfully, if all we can think about are worldly
affairs, and if we do not try to reduce anger, envy, jealousy, pride,
greed, hate, rejection in daily life. If we use mindfulness, clear
comprehension and a calming of sensual desires, we have a foundation for
meditation. As we practice in everyday affairs in conjunction with
meditation, we see a slow and gradual change, as if an athlete has been
training. The mind becomes strong and attends to the important issues in
life. It doesn't get thrown about by everything that happens.
If we can
give some time for contemplation and meditation each day and not forget
mindfulness, we have a very good beginning for an expansion of
consciousness. Eventually the universe and we ourselves look quite
different, based on our changed viewpoint. There is a Zen saying: "First
the mountain is a mountain, then the mountain is no longer a mountain and
in the end, the mountain is a mountain again." First we see everything in
its relative reality; every person is a different individual, every tree
is a particular kind, everything has some significance to our own lives.
Then we start practicing, and suddenly we see everything in its relative
reality; every person is a different individual, every tree is a
particular kind, everything has some significance to our own lives. Then
we start practicing, and suddenly we see a different reality, which is
universal and expansive. We become very involved with our own meditation
and do not pay much attention to what is going on around us. We see an
expansion and elevation of our consciousness, know that our everyday
reactions are not important. For a while, we may pay attention to just
that and to living in a different reality. In the end, we come right back
to where we were, doing all the same things as before, but no longer being
touched by them. A mountain is just a mountain again. Everything returns
to the same ordinary aspect it used to have, except it's no longer
significant, or separate.
A description
of an Arahant in the Discourse on Blessings (Maha-mangala Sutta) is:
"...although touched by worldly circumstance, never the mind is wavering."
The Enlightened One is touched by worldly circumstances, he acts like
everybody else, he eats, sleeps, washes and talks to people, but the mind
does not waver. The mind stays cool and peaceful at all times.
VI. Kamma is
Intention
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If we want to
understand kamma and rebirth correctly, we have to see them in the light
of non-self. They proclaim non-self quite vividly and yet most people
usually don't take that into consideration at all, but talk about "my"
kamma and "my" rebirth. Especially "my" rebirth, which is absurd. Do they
mean the last one or future one? Do we think it will be "me" again?
However in ordinary language we have little choice, yet the spoken word
has evolved out of our thinking processes.
People often
ask what is reborn, if it isn't "me"? Kamma as a residual effect in the
rebirth consciousness is reborn, but it certainly doesn't look or act like
the one we know, doesn't have the same name, may not have the same form or
sex, may not even be human. It has no other connection than kamma. Since
we can see quite clearly that the one who is reborn only connects through
kamma in the rebirth consciousness with a previous life, we can see just
as clearly that kamma is impersonal, without identity. While we talk about
"my" kamma, it's really an impersonal process. It is not crime and
punishment, although it may appear like that, and is one of the most
commonly held views. Many of our entrenched views are so deeply ingrained
that it becomes extremely difficult to understand anything radically
different.
Kamma,
actually, just means action. In the India of the Buddha, that's how it was
understood. In order to make people aware of what it really implies, the
Buddha said: "Kamma, oh monks, I declare, is intention," which arises
first in our thoughts, then generates speech and action. This was the new
interpretation that the Buddha gave to kamma, because it was largely
misunderstood and used as predetermined destiny. There were teachers in
his day that taught it that way, which was denounced by the Buddha as
wrong view, misleading and liable to have unwholesome results. This view
of pre-determined destiny is just as rampant today as it was at the
Buddha's time. It is often voiced like this: "There's nothing I can do
about it, it's my kamma." This is the greatest folly one can adhere to,
because it puts the onus of one's own intentions on some nebulous previous
person whom one doesn't even know. In other words, one doesn't take
responsibility for one's own actions, which is a very common failing.
It is harder
to find a person who does take responsibility than to find one who
doesn't. Most people don't want to take responsibility for themselves, if
they can just manage to stay alive. From that difficulty arises the idea
of pre-determined destiny. "What can I do, it's not my fault, it's my
kamma." That takes away all possibility for practicing the Dhamma. The
Buddha said: "If that were so, the holy life would not be possible, nor
would it be feasible to become enlightened." This is the first wrong view
that one has to quickly eliminate from one's thinking process, if one
wants to practice a spiritual discipline.
Kamma is
intention, and intention is now, which means kamma is being made now, in
every waking moment. However when two people make the same kamma, they do
not get the same results. This is another point the Buddha emphasized.
Since kamma is impersonal, it is strictly concerned with a flow of events
which are creating results by themselves. It's a matter of cause and
effect. That's all there is, and the Buddha's teaching is sometimes called
the teaching of cause and effect.
Sometimes we
see people who are very nice, they would not hurt a fly, and yet a lot of
misfortune befalls them. Or others who are difficult and unfriendly, but
everything always seems to go right for them. How is it possible? It
depends entirely upon their accumulations of good or bad kamma that have
resulted in their particular mind continuum. The Buddha gave the following
simile: "If one puts a teaspoon of salt in a cup of water, that cup
becomes undrinkable. If one puts a teaspoon of salt in the Ganges River,
it doesn't make the slightest difference to the river, the water remains
exactly the same." If one makes bad kamma and has only a cupful of good
kamma; the results will be disastrous. If one has a river full of good
kamma to support one, the results will be negligible. Therefore, we can
never compare the results that people have, because we don't know their
past histories.
The residual
mind continuum that we bring with us certainly has a bearing on this life,
particularly on where we are born, under what circumstances and in what
sort of family. The Buddha gave a simile for that: "If there is a herd of
cows locked in a barn, and the barn door is opened, the cow that is the
strongest will go out first. If there isn't one like that, then the one
who is the habitual leader will go out first; if there is no habitual
leader then the one nearest the door will go out first. If there is none
like that, they will all try to go out at the same time" This depicts the
mind moments at death. Since death is imminent for everyone no matter what
their age, it is skillful to be ready for it now.
The last
thought moment at death is the one that impels the rebirth consciousness
to its next destination. We can compare that to going to sleep at night
and our last thought moment is that we will wake up at four o'clock in the
morning. Most people can easily do that. The last thought moment becomes
the first one upon waking. Dying is exactly the same, except that the body
that wakes up is a new one, and looks different now. It is likely that it
will be a human being again, unless one has behaved too badly for such a
rebirth. Even though people often wish for rebirth in a deva realm, most
people probably return as human beings.
The last
thought moment is the one that connects with the strongest experience in
this life time. If, for instance, one has murdered a person, that would be
a very strong memory and could be the last thought moment. If one has
built a monastery or temple that may be a very strong though formation.
Or, if one has always kept one's moral conduct intact, that may be the
last thought moment. Whatever is the strongest in one's mind, that is most
likely to arise.
Otherwise
one's habitual thinking takes over. If one has usually been dissatisfied
or angry, then that will be in the mind. If one has had much
living-kindness, compassion and helpfulness toward others, those thoughts
will arise.
If there is
no particular thinking habit, then that which comes nearest the sense
doors at death takes precedence. The last sense to go is hearing. It is
very common, therefore, in most religions that some devotional words are
chanted by monks or priests which may help to have a good last thought
moment. If these last mental formations are wholesome, one's rebirth will
be favorable. That doesn't mean that the rest of the kamma resultants
disappear. It only means that the impulsion that arises at death takes a
certain direction. Therefore the last thought moments are of crucial
importance.
If one has
been a very generous person, that can be a last thought. It is therefore
considered extremely beneficial to remind a dying person of all the good
things they have done in this life, such as their generosity, bringing up
their children well, their kindness, because ordinary worldlings are apt
to have regrets and self-blame. It has in recent years been recognized
that dying is a very important part of living, even though in the West
many people do not believe in rebirth. Everyone pays a lot of attention to
a baby being born, because that baby is going to be around for a long
time, and will be an important member of the family. But few have paid
sufficient attention to the death moment, because after all that person is
gone, finished. but it is now understood that this is not a wholesome way
of treating a human being and in the West there are many hospitals for
terminally ill and dying people, where great attention is paid to their
mind states, to reduce or eliminate fear and anxiety. Yet, hardly anyone
there believes in rebirth, but even without that, death is considered very
important.
Another
factor has entered into our death experience. We are now technologically
advanced enough, so that in some instances, people who were clinically
dead, could be brought back to life, using new methods that are available
in Western hospitals. A number of these people talked to their doctors
about their "death" experiences. Some doctors, particularly Dr. Moody,
wrote about these phenomena. An outstanding feature of the stories told,
is the fact that they were practically identical in their important
aspects. This gives us another clue to non-self (anatta). All of
them, without fail, were extremely pleased with their "death" and
reluctant to come back. One woke up extremely angry at the doctor for
being instrumental in re-establishing the life continuum.
The
experiences were all connected with a very bright light, containing total
awareness of the mind, but lacking a body. Each person was able to see
his/her own body in the hospital bed and wandered off towards the bright
light, quite aware of these occurrences, including watching the doctor at
work. Then, removing themselves from the hospital and entering an area of
bliss, happiness and great peace, some of them talked about beings they
met. Most of them described one particular being which was "light." None
of the descriptions had any religious symbolism in them but all of them
were similar, some identical. With such books becoming more widely known
the death moment has gained its rightful importance.
In the five
daily recollections the Buddha asks us to remember that we are of the
nature to die. At other times he talks about the fact that the last
thought moment is extremely important and consequently it is essential to
get one's thoughts in order now. On one's deathbed it's too late. The
wholesome aspects of our thoughts are always connected with loving
kindness, compassion, generosity and equanimity. If we arouse those in our
minds now, as a habitual way of thinking, we can carry that with us to our
deathbed. We are then assured not only of a favorable rebirth, at the very
least, but also of harmony during our lifetime. This will make it possible
for us to easily practice the Dhamma again. If we are born into a very
poor family where nobody has enough to eat, it will be very difficult to
sit down in meditation, because in a poor family everybody has to work to
survive. If we are reborn in a society where meditation is unknown, it
will be very difficult to continue our practice. It is not wise,
therefore, to wait till old age and death, but rather get our thinking
process in order now. This entails knowing our thought-formation, through
mindfulness and attention.
Our
appearance here is very short-lived -- even 70 years is not very long --
so we can think of ourselves as a guest performer, always waiting for
applause. Naturally that makes life pretty difficult. First one has stage
fright. Is one going to perform properly? Having given the performance,
will the applause be following? If one doesn't get it, one feels
devastated. Being a guest performer on this planet is a skillful way of
thinking, but waiting for the applause is wrong view. If we know that
we're being the best we can with all our faculties, we don't have to wait
for somebody else's approval. We can have right intention again and again.
That's what matters most, because intention towards goodness concerns both
oneself and others. Less self-concern frees us to embrace others.
We must not
decline in Dhamma and meditation practice, of course, because only if we
have developed ourselves to some extent, can we help others, otherwise we
act in ignorance, which will not bring good results.
If we are
concerned with our next rebirth, we are really living in a dream. The
person who is making the kamma now is not the one who's going to reap the
results. The only connection will be the kammic residue, the result
(vipaka). Even this connection is very tenuous, because we can break
the chain. If a person has made a lot of bad kamma and in the next rebirth
makes much good kamma, the bad resultants may never fruit, and vice versa.
The case in
point is Angulimala, who killed 999 people and yet became an Arahant,
because he came to be in a monastery under the Buddha where his bad kamma
didn't get a chance to fruit. However, Mahamoggallana, already an Arahant,
was killed by robbers and his bones pulverized, due to past kamma. We
cannot establish a credit account of good kamma against all eventualities,
because we have no jurisdiction over the person who will inherit the kamma
that we made in this life. But making good kamma now, brings immediate
results, happiness and contentment in the mind, and usually some happiness
for others also. If one is able to give happiness to others, there is
again a cause for joy for oneself.
It's useless
to think about kamma made in a past life, or to be made in a future life.
None of us will know anything about the next life, nor do we remember
anything from our last life. Why worry about these then? Only this moment,
right now, is important. The past is like a dream and the future is yet to
come. When the future actually happens, it's always the present. Tomorrow
never comes; when it does, it's called today. One cannot live in the
future nor in the past. One can only live this single moment. If we really
paid attention to every single moment, we would meditate well. We would
also have no doubt about impermanence (anicca). In fact we would
see it so clearly, we could let go of our attachments, our clinging.
We could
consider thus: "Have I used every moment to the best advantage?" If we
have made some bad kamma in the past, we can resolve to quickly perform
some good action. That's the only value the past can provide. Otherwise
the most effective and compelling aspect of impermanence is that we are
moving away from thought, speech and action so quickly, that we cannot
even remember them, never mind hold on to them.
Yet we're
trying to hold on to other people, to our ideas, views and opinions; we
hang on to this body, to physical manifestation and mental aberrations and
try to make them solid. It's impossible and cannot be done, there's only
each moment. We can easily see in digital clocks how each moment comes and
goes. Just watch a clock for five minutes, and realize five precious
moments of your live are gone. The past is actually forgotten, except some
highlights, but otherwise it has disappeared. That shows us with clarity
that we are a flowing phenomenon without any substance. We're putting a
substance into it, out of an ignorant appraisal of totally untrue reality,
in which we are living. It is like a theater, something we have made up
ourselves, where people wear costumes and say their lines and believe this
to be real life. We want to keep the theater going, but that is not
possible and so everybody has dukkha, which cannot be eliminated
through non-knowing or indifference, but only through a change of
awareness and view.
Kamma-making
is initially in the mind. Our mental formations make our kamma. Unless we
become master of our mind, we cannot escape from making bad kamma. The
mind is constantly in danger of thinking something unwholesome. The
negativities in the mind are innumerable: "I don't like it, can't stand
it; I'm afraid, it's boring..." All are negativities concerned with anger.
"I want to get it, keep it, renew it," are also bad kamma, connected with
greed. All arise in the mind.
Very few
people watch their mind. They believe it to be difficult and tiring. But
it's much more tiring to make bad kamma, because the results are heavy and
unpleasant. Very few people have that inner buoyancy which denotes
independent joy. Most people are bogged down by their mind's negativities,
not by outer circumstances. Watching one's own mind and making sure that
one practices the four supreme efforts is the most beneficial thing one
can do for oneself, and secures good kamma.
Out of our
thoughts arise speech and action. We can't talk without having thought it
first, and we can't act without having made up our mind to do so. Although
people speak and act so impulsively that they are not aware that a thought
has gone ahead, that doesn't mean there was none. It just means that
mindfulness and clear comprehension were lacking. Our mind is the most
precious asset we have. No jewel can compare with it, because the mind
contains the seed of enlightenment. Unless we use it properly, we're
foolishly burying a jewel in the dirt. People often do so, primarily
because they have had no training otherwise.
When we
recognize that we have this most precious jewel of a mind, we will guard
it from being scratched, bumped and dirtied, losing its luster and
brilliance, but rather make sure that it remains pure and luminous and
thereby make good kamma. The action itself, the Buddha said, is not of the
foremost importance, it's the intention behind it. Even generosity can be
extended from a wrong motivation. If the intention is to store up some
merit for the future, that's rather selfish. If it's done out of
compassion for those who have less, that is the ideal way. Yet, even with
wrong motivation, it's still better to be generous than not. There's good
kamma in it, because one has let go of something that one owns.
The guard we
keep on our mind will assure that whatever we do is done with right
intention, the second step on the Noble Eightfold Path, which is our
guideline. Kamma making depends on the mind, and the mind's purity depends
on meditation. If we meditate diligently and regularly, eventually we will
see with clarity what goes on in our mind. Some people are satisfied with
gaining a little peace, but even that is already an advantage and growth
aspect. If we watch the mind in meditation, we will learn to watch the
mind also in daily living. Then we have a very good chance of making good
kamma.
If we become
tired of the ever-recurring cycle of loss and gain, praise and blame, fame
and ill-fame, happiness and unhappiness (the eight worldly dhammas), we
need to make a determined effort to shed clinging and craving. This effort
has meditation as its base, but that's not all. Meditation is a means for
gaining access to the ability to rid oneself of the tendencies of greed
and hate. The meditative process gives the mind the clarity to see these
tenancies within oneself, so that one can do something about them.
Our duty in
this life as human beings with senses and bodies intact, and able to hear
the true Dhamma, is to guard our mind and experience its original nature,
which is purity, luminosity, pliability. Such a mind can reach the depth
of the teaching, where we find nobody that owns the mind.
VII.
Spiritual Faculties
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The Buddha
spoke about five spiritual faculties which turn into spiritual powers if
we cultivate and develop them. We all have these faculties within and
developing them means making them powerful qualities which become factors
of enlightenment. As long as they are only faculties, they are potentials
for enlightenment.
The Buddha
compared them to a team of horses with one lead horse and two pairs that
are pulling a wagon. The lead horse can go as fast or as slow as it likes,
the others have to fall into step with it. The pairs have to be in balance
with each other, otherwise if one goes faster than the other, the wagon
will topple.
The leading
faculty is mindfulness. It is up to us how much of it we can find in any
given moment. Mindfulness is a moment-to-moment mental factor which can be
compared to an observer. If we have an observer with us all the time, it
is more likely that we will stay on the path.
The first
pair that has to be balanced is faith and wisdom. There is an analogy that
the Buddha gave for these two qualities: he compared faith to a blind
giant who meets up with a small, very sharp-eyed cripple, called wisdom.
The blind giant, named faith, says to the small, sharp-eyed cripple named
wisdom: "I'm strong and can go very fast, but I can't see where I'm going.
You're small and weak, but have sharp eyes. If you will ride on my
shoulders, together we could go very far." This tells us that faith
without wisdom, while being a strong faculty, is yet unable to find the
right direction. We say "faith can move mountains," but being blind, faith
doesn't know which mountain needs moving. However coupled with wisdom,
there is enormous potential. The reason for such strength, is that heart
and mind are brought into harmony. The mind can have wisdom and the heart
can have faith. When heart and mind are brought to a point of
co-existence, of no separation, the power which develops, is far greater
than just 1 + 1 = 2. It is more like 2 to the power of 2.
Faith as a
quality in the heart has such great value because it is connected with
love. We can only have faith in something or someone we love. Faith is
also connected to devotion, which is a giving of oneself and a lessening
of pride. These are valuable and necessary spiritual qualities. If we are
devoted to a high ideal such as Buddha-Dhamma-Sangha, then we have the
understanding that there is something greater than ourselves.
The devotion
we can have for that ideal is manifested in giving our love and
admiration, respect and gratitude, which are very important and helpful
qualities to develop.
But the
Buddha taught that blind faith is useless. Blind faith means that one
believes what one is told without personal investigation, that one has
faith in something that one's family adheres to, or because it has been
written down in special books, because it has been transmitted from
teacher to disciple, because it is something that one likes anyway, that
promises some mystical revelation, or because the teacher is a respected
person. All these are no reasons to follow a spiritual path. Do not
believe because somebody told you so! But if there is some wisdom in the
mind, and without it life would be quite unbearable, we can quite easily
investigate whether our faith and devotion are justified.
We can for
instance, verify the first and second Noble Truths within ourselves many
times in a day. If we do that, we know what they mean, only believing them
is not very helpful, because it will not make any difference in our hearts
and minds. We can check out the impermanence and unsatisfactoriness of all
worldly phenomena without much difficulty. Thereby we gradually gain more
and more wisdom.
The
unwavering faith in the Buddha-Dhamma-Sangha is one of the results that a
stream-enterer (sotapanna) gains when s/he has the first path
moment, because until then the fetter of doubt still exists. If we have
established unwavering faith within ourselves in the veracity and
exactitude of the Buddha's teachings, we have taken an important step. The
heart quality within us will have opened up in a way which will be most
helpful, but understanding has to go along. In Pali the one word citta
denotes feeling and thinking, but in English we have to distinguish
between heart and mind because we consider feeling a heart quality and
thinking a mind quality, otherwise, we can't express what we really mean.
Our thinking
capacity is rationality and logic, which is impaired by our emotionalism,
by the reactions to our feelings. The formula for growth is: "purification
of emotions brings clarification of thought." If our emotions are pure, as
they are for example in devotion, gratitude, respect and faith, our
thoughts have a much greater capacity for clarity. The impure emotions
connected with passions of either wanting or not wanting, are those which
hinder our thinking capacity. We can't think "straight" when we are under
the sway of strong emotions.
Our education
system doesn't take any notice of that, nor do parents teach this to their
children, yet the Buddha taught it quite clearly. Each human being has a
right and left hemisphere in the brain which we classify as male and
female, the right being female, left being male. The left or male side is
in charge of the right side of the body and vice versa. Just as the pairs
of horses have to balance, both sides, male and female have to attain a
harmonious whole. The male side is usually connected to our rationality,
logic, linear thinking, understanding. The female side is connected to
feelings, nurturing, caring, compassion, love, all the emotional
qualities. Each of us has both sides, the emotional and the mental
capacity. Very few people develop both equally. Therefore their cart often
topples. Emotionalism is just as much a danger as thinking without being
in touch with one's feelings. That too can go very much astray.
In school we
were taught to debate. We were given a subject to debate with another
child. When we finished, we changed sides and were asked to hold the
opposite view and debate, giving all factors of the other side. Any child
can do it, any grown-up can do it. It is just straight-forward thinking.
One can have the opposite opinion by the flip of a coin. There is no
inherent truth in any opinion, because it's simply linear thinking.
However, if these thoughts are connected to our feelings we can no longer
debate the opposite side. This is the old story of having to bite into a
mango to know its taste. We can be told many things about a mango. It's
sweet, delicious, soft, but we cannot imagine its taste unless we get the
feeling of the mango on our tongue and have the personal experience. Then
we can no longer debate whether the mango is sweet or not, because we have
experienced the truth. This is the difference between just thinking or
thinking coupled with the experience of feeling.
A person who
goes too far on the side of rational thinking has to learn to balance with
feelings, the female side. Anyone who thinks to the extent where the
experience of feelings is hardly known, has to practice much mindfulness
of feelings. On the other hand, the female side is often emotionalism.
This means we are carried away by our emotions and consequently our
thinking is impaired. The quality of logical thinking, of delving into a
thought process and being able to analyze, is not possible when the
emotions are at the forefront. Of course in women this has a connection to
the mores of the patriarchal society, but primarily it is due to the fact
of not having developed one's potential for both sides, which is inherent
in all of us.
The person
who is primarily analytical is often under the impression that this will
actually bring about all the desired results. Such a person, unless
prodded and told often enough, will not try to get in touch with feelings.
The one who is always relating and reacting to emotions is so habituated
that s/he can no longer do anything else, until shown through the
meditative process that there is an alternative.
If one lives
only in relation and in reaction to one's emotions, life can become quite
difficult. People who live like that often try to deaden their emotions as
a way out of their dilemma. That's of course not the answer, rather to
purify them. Naturally the person who is a thinker also has to purify the
emotions, but before such a person can do that, s/he first needs to get in
touch with them. The one who lives with emotions and reacts to them all
the time, also has to be in touch with them, but not to deaden them, but
to encourage wholesome reactions. As the purification of the emotions
takes place, thinking will no longer be overshadowed by diffuse
uncertainties. Unless we do that, we only use half of our potential. This
is what faith and wisdom can mean to us, the emotions and the thinking.
When we cultivate both, we develop our faculties into powers. Harmonizing
our emotional with our thinking capacities is the essence of harmonizing
faith with wisdom.
A powerful
mind is a great asset, but only in conjunction with purified emotions.
Faith is one such purified emotion. Faith is much easier for people whose
primary defilement is greed, rather than hate. Faith arouses pleasant
feelings, which is greed's direction. In this case, greed is an asset,
although basically it is, of course, a negative characteristic. But if we
use it in a positive way, we are engaged in a purification process,
wanting that which is wholesome, which leads us to the supermundane.
First greed
opens up into faith, resulting in pleasant feelings. Then we can use greed
to want successful meditation, stream-entry (sotapatti),
liberation. All are cravings, but they're going in the right direction, of
using greed to get rid of greed. That is our best approach because greed
is only truly eliminated by the non-returner (anagami). If we use
our craving in that manner, we are at least searching for that which will
give us the greatest benefit, rather than pleasure through the senses.
The Buddha's
path is called the middle path, which means a path of balance. We have to
balance all extremes, so that they become a useful basis for a harmonious
person, whose practice will flourish. This is one reason why the Buddha
recommended the meditation on the loathsomeness of the body. People often
say they don't want to think of their body as loathsome, it is a good
working machine and very useful. But we are actually enamored with our
body; we are hanging on to it, loving it, trying to preserve it, keeping
it young and beautifying it. We are attached to it and consider it "me".
The loathsomeness of the body meditation is not designed to disgust us,
but only to create a balance to our identification with our body. We can
compare this with walking on a tight-rope; if we balance too far to the
right, we fall down, too far on the left, we topple. Constant balancing is
necessary, which has to be done by everyone for themselves.
If we know
ourselves to be reacting to our emotions, we need to start analyzing and
inquiring into ourselves. It is difficult for someone who has always lived
in reaction to their emotions to see beyond them. The meditation practice
helps greatly, because the tranquillity that is bound to arise to some
extent is conducive to penetration into reality. We need some
self-knowledge, otherwise we can't make any changes. Introspection and
attention to one's feelings and thoughts should provide enough insight
into ourselves to lay the foundation for a meaningful change.
The other
pair is energy and concentration. It's not physical energy that's needed,
but rather mental energy, which has little to do with the capacities of
the body. We need unwavering determination for this practice, which is
transformed energy. The Buddha compared us with the man who's wearing a
turban that is on fire. Obviously, if a man is wearing a turban that is on
fire, he is most anxious to get rid of it. That same kind of determination
is needed to practice diligently. Energy is also dependent upon
one-pointed direction. We realize what is most important and don't
vacillate between social life, social action, practice, entertainment and
the many other options open to us. Everybody has more energy for those
things they like. We have to be very careful that we don't use up our
energy searching for pleasant sense contacts because we like them. We have
to be attentive to the fact that pleasant sense contacts are so
short-lived they will never give us complete satisfaction, and that we're
using up our energy without getting any real fulfillment. So it turns into
a waste of our energy.
If we see
clearly through attention, mindfulness and introspection, that if we put
our energy into meditation and practice of Dhamma, our dukkha is
greatly reduced thereby, and that we actually have a mode of living which
includes everything else, then we will certainly turn in that direction.
The rest of daily living happens anyway. Most people use up about 98% of
their energy just to stay alive. Not that they have to work so hard to
make a living, but just to attend to their daily duties and
responsibilities, just to keep going. If our energy is used for
meditation, mindfulness and bare attention, the mind faculties sharpen to
the point where minor things and duties necessary to stay alive, are done
in an easy and harmonious flow. We can start using our energy for that,
which is most important.
If energy is
not coupled with concentration, it becomes restlessness and we can notice
that in meditation. Sometimes there is no concentration, yet there is a
lot of energy. Then mind and body become restless; we would like to jump
up and run away. If concentration is too strong and there is no energy,
then the third hindrance arises, namely sloth and torpor. That is also
easily noticeable in meditation. People who are used to concentrating and
can do it well, may occasionally lack energy, and consequently
concentration becomes conducive to sleepiness. That is a time when the
meditation should be directed towards insight, rather than calm.
Calm
meditation which is pure concentration, may result in sleepiness when
there is not enough energy. But insight meditation, with attention on
impermanence, the constant arising and ceasing of thoughts and feelings,
may bring up the energy that is needed. As we only have a limited amount
of vigor, we have to use it in the best possible way. Most people do not
realize that energy is a great asset and squander it on totally irrelevant
activities. When we realize that it is essential for the spiritual path,
then we may become more careful with it. As the body gets older, physical
energy is reduced, but that does not have to include mind energy. On the
contrary. When the body is young and full of vigor a lot of physical
activity may take place, and the mind may be neglected. In a older person
when body activity becomes less, the mind may receive most of the
attention, and mental energy could be increased.
Energy and
concentration have to balance, primarily in meditation. When these
faculties become powers, they result in the meditative absorptions. When
wisdom becomes a power, it means insight into the three characteristics of
impermanence (anicca), unsatisfactoriness (dukkha) and
corelessness (anatta). When faith turns into a power, then it also
manifests as the four immeasurable emotions (brahma vihara): loving
kindness (metta), compassion (karuna), sympathetic joy (mudita),
equanimity (upekkha). Mindfulness is a power when all four
foundations (i.e., mindfulness of body, feeling, volition and thought
content) are habitually attended to. To become a master of all of these
aspects is an ideal but to practice them is a necessity. And since all of
us have these faculties within, there is every reason to cultivate them.
One finds oneself a more harmonious and balanced person, with less
difficulties, capable of helping others. To develop these five faculties
should be a primary object in one's life. The balancing of them needs to
be seen as connecting heart with mind.
VIII. Steps
on the Way
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There are
three ways to approach the Dhamma. One is by acquiring knowledge through
study of the Buddha's discourses, trying to remember them as faithfully as
possible. That is very useful for the propagation of the teaching through
lectures and books.
Another way
is through devotion, offering flowers and incense, reciting devotional
verses, giving gifts and making merit. Generosity and meritorious action
were highly recommended by the Buddha, but he didn't put any value on just
being in the presence of monks and nuns.
Once there
was a monk who was so enraptured with the Buddha that he never wanted to
be out of his sight. When this monk became sick one day and was unable to
see the Buddha, he became despondent. The other monks asked him why he was
so unhappy. He explained that he was depressed because he could not see
the Buddha, who then came to visit the sick monk and said to him: "What do
you see in this vile form? There is nothing to see in that. Whoever sees
me, sees the Dhamma, whoever sees Dhamma, sees me. "
The third
approach to Dhamma, namely practice, has always been the one most highly
recommended by the Buddha. He said a person with real reverence and
devotion is one who lives according to the teaching. There are a number of
steps to be taken when we approach the Dhamma through practice. The
foundation would be moral conduct, meritorious actions, making good kamma.
Without such a foundation, we do not have enough security within to be
peaceful and at ease with ourselves, which are prerequisites for
meditation.
This has
sometimes been misinterpreted to mean that we should not meditate unless
we have already complete purity of precepts and gained perfect
mindfulness. But that doesn't follow, because it's meditation that helps
us to gain mindfulness, and gives us insight into the efficacy of the
precepts.
The next
practice aspect is to guard our senses. This is frequently mentioned by
the Buddha, so that it bears repeating and remembering. Without guarding
our senses, we are always open to being tempted into wanting and craving,
resulting in turmoil in the mind. Our sense contacts are triggers for lust
and hate.
Our senses
are so permanently engaged that we have lost sight of their impact, are
taking all that for granted and think that's just the way it is. We also
believe that what we see, hear, taste, touch, smell and think is really
exactly as we are interpreting it. That's a fundamental error. Everyone
experiences their sense contacts in an individual manner.
Here is an
example: The food Westerners eat is considered baby food in Asia: food
spiced in the Asian way appears like hellfire to the Western palate. Even
such a basic necessity as food shows up as a completely opposite
experience. We can infer from that, that we all live in our own world.
People argue vehemently because they believe their world must be the right
one and even kill each other because of unresolved differences.
The Buddha
was often asked such a question as: "Is the world finite or infinite,
eternal or not?" His answer was: "What is the world? The world is our
sense contacts." When asked questions such as these, the Buddha always
brought the questioner back to practice. When we know that the world we
live in consists of our sense contacts, we have something to practice
with. When we know that the world is eternal or not, what is there to
practice with?
Our senses
include thinking, which is an almost constantly operating faculty. At this
moment, we have touch, sound, sight and thought contact. Four of our six
senses are engaged. Because our senses have been at work all our lives we
believe that is the only way life can be experienced, which creates our
deep craving to continue in this form. There is danger in this craving,
something most people are not aware of consciously. Subconsciously we all
know about it, because that's where our fears originate. If we examine
ourselves for a moment we will realize that we harbor many fears, all
carrying different names. Some people are afraid of spiders or snakes,
some are afraid of the dark, some are afraid of airplanes, others that
their loved ones may die, or that they might lose all their money. All
sorts of different names for exactly the same fear; the fear of losing
one's identifications, the fear of unpleasant, painful sense contacts,
ultimately the fear of annihilation. Yet losing this existence is a
guaranteed outcome of being alive. It's just a matter of time.
These fears
are caused by our attachment to our pleasant sense contacts, identifying
with them and believing that apart from our senses there is no other
reality. Naturally we want that to continue then. We take our unpleasant
experiences in stride, expecting them to cease and the pleasant ones to
arise again. If our unpleasant sense contacts are in the majority, then we
say we are having a lot of dukkha. Or we might say: "I'm having a
problem." As a matter of fact we are all having the same problem, namely
that of not being enlightened. When we come to the realization that our
sense contacts are very momentary and their inherent satisfaction a matter
of opinion, we will find it easier to let go of them during meditation.
Meditation
will only happen when the sense contacts, particularly the thinking, are
suspended. If, for instance, the touch contact in the sitting position is
recognized and attended to as unpleasant, the mind starts working on that.
Remembering what someone said yesterday, last week or even ten years ago,
can start the mind churning. This is all due to our attachment to our
senses and our identification with them.
From all
sense contacts feelings arise, there is no way that can be altered, but we
can stop ourselves from reacting to such feelings, and believing that they
belong to us. To get our meditation to a concentrated state, we must
refuse to react to feelings arisen from sense contacts. The more we
practice this in daily life, the easier it will be to become concentrated
in meditation. We don't have to go along with this natural reaction of
human beings. Meditative absorptions are supermundane and therefore
require supermundane qualities in us. Whenever the Buddha described the
way to Nibbana he included the meditative absorptions as part of the
practice, to lead us to the inner realization of the Dhamma.
Guarding our
senses is not only important in meditation, but equally valid in daily
life. In a meditation course, where there isn't as much input as in
ordinary situation, it is a little easier to protect our minds from liking
or disliking what we see, hear, taste, touch, smell and think. In order to
facilitate this, we need to practice hearing only sounds, without
explaining to ourselves what it is we heard. When the mind starts telling
its story about the sound, at least we will know what we are doing, namely
investing sound with a reality which gives it importance.
The same
applies to eye contact. If, for instance, we are looking at a bush, our
mind will say: "Oh, a cinnamon bush; who planted it? I wonder if we can
use it?" Or any number of other ideas. Instead of all this, we can look at
that which we call "bush" and be aware that our eyes are touching upon a
form and thereby stopping the mind from making up stories. If we can
manage to do this once or twice outside of meditation, we can use the same
method of handling sense input in meditation. When we guard ourselves
against the mind-made details of sense contacts, we are in less danger of
falling into greed and hate. We will find this a great help in becoming
concentrated in meditation.
Our lives are
governed by our senses, but we do not have to continue with that. It is
not compulsory. Within the operation of our six senses, it is not possible
to find continued and unadulterated happiness. If it were possible, we
would already be blissfully contented, since we have been having sense
input day after day, life after life. The answer does not lie in improving
our sense contacts, even though most people do try that, but rather in
improving our reactions, so that eventually equanimity becomes our mode of
living. This is the promise the Buddha made to us, namely that we can get
out of all dukkha, all problems, but not by having only wonderful
sense contacts and not a single moment of unpleasantness. Such a thing has
never been possible, not even when the Buddha himself was alive. But we
can have moments when we are actually able to do just that. That one
moment gives us the initial experience what it is like to be free, which
is the only kind of freedom to be found in human life. There is no other.
Anyone who understands the Buddha's explicit instructions, especially
those who meditate, can practice in this manner.
The next step
to be taken is mindfulness, accompanied by clear comprehension (sampajañña).
Mindfulness is the mental factor of just knowing, clear comprehension the
one of understanding. We need both. That too can and should be practiced
in daily life. Mindfulness of the body was praised by the Buddha as
leading to the "deathless," a synonym for Nibbana. When we watch our
body's actions and realize that it can only follow the mind's
instructions, this is our first step into insight. Usually we take mind
and body for granted. Most people are more interested in their body than
in their mind and are looking after the body very well. Very few people
are looking after their mind.
Being aware
of our body's movements gives us a chance to be alert without thinking,
just knowing. Clear comprehension is our four-pronged mode of
discrimination described previously.
We might
think that such discrimination would slow us down unduly, that we won't be
able to get our work done. Actually it has the opposite effect, because we
will not do anything that is unnecessary. When we use mindfulness and
clear comprehension again and again, they will become a habit, which will
enhance our abilities to attain calm and insight. When we experience our
mind ordering our body around, this is different from just knowing about
it. We become intimately acquainted with our dual aspect of mind and body
and can begin to investigate where is "me" in that. We may eventually find
that "me" is our wish to be eternal, not to be annihilated.
Most people
would like to experience calm, bliss and tranquillity in meditation. But
those, whose minds are very active need to gain insight first in order to
become calm. Those, whose minds are more peaceful in any case, find it
easier to become calm first and gain insight later. A little calm creates
a little insight and vice versa. In practice we work on both these aspects
to give ourselves the best chance to develop both simultaneously. When we
watch the breath going in and out of the nostrils, we try to achieve a
calm and peaceful mind. When the mind strays to thinking, we first realize
"I'm thinking," and then see the impermanent nature of each thought, and
how it so often rolls along without any purpose. This is a valuable
insight, because we can infer that our thoughts are frequently not to be
believed, are unimportant, have no solidity and do not provide a secure
foothold for us.
Without such
an experience, we might continue to believe all our thoughts and try using
them as solid foundations for our life. but when we see in meditation,
that we can't remember what we were thinking from one second to the next,
that belief is shattered, never to arise again. When we start doubting our
thoughts, that doesn't mean we start doubting ourselves. It refers to
doubting our views and opinions, which is a most valuable practice.
In the
discourse on living-kindness (Karaniya Metta Sutta) an Arahat is described
as being totally free from all views. What the Buddha expounded to us were
his own experiences. Viewpoints are always based on our wrong assumption
that there is a "me" and are therefore discolored by this underlying
error. When we realize what our minds are up to, we will eventually stop
having so many viewpoints and thereby let go of some of the mind's
clutter. Most minds are full of ideas, hopes, plans, memories and
opinions. Right and wrong are often based on culture or tradition and have
no ultimate validity. They clutter up the mind and leave no space for a
totally new outlook upon ourselves and the world.
An important
step in this sequence is self-conquest, which the Buddha described as the
way to Nibbana. As long as we react to our feelings created through sense
contacts, we must admit that we are "reactors" rather than "actors,"
victims rather than masters. We like to think of ourselves as more exalted
than that, yet when we observe reality, that is all we can find. As soon
as we have overcome this habitual reacting, we have taken a step towards
conquering ourselves.
We do not
force ourselves into unpleasant situations, which we haven't learned to
cope with yet, because the mind will again react negatively, which doesn't
help us on the path. We need not sit in excruciating pain in meditation,
but we need to observe our mind and its activity. This will assist us also
in daily living when unpleasant feelings and dislike arise because of
words we hear or sights we see. When we learn to accept things the way
they are, self-conquest has taken place which releases us from views and
opinions.
Dukkha
arises from the fact that we don't like the law of nature, to which we are
subject. We don't like our loved ones dying, we don't like physical pain
or lack of appreciation, we don't like losing what we prize. If we could
just accept the way it is it would go a long way towards looking at the
world more realistically, with less passion, which is the way to freedom.
Our passionate desires keep us in bounds.
When we have
the opportunity to sit quietly and watch ourselves, new insights about
ourselves may arise. We are the prototype of impermanence. But when our
mind veers toward the past and starts rehashing old movies, it's time to
turn it off. The past cannot be changed. The person who experienced the
past, no longer exists, is only a fantasy now. When the mind strolls to
the future, imagining how we would like it to be, we can let go by
remembering the future has no reality either. When it happens, it can only
be the present, and the person planning the future is not the same one,
who will experience it. If we stay in this moment, here and now, during
meditation, we can use that same skill in daily life.
When we
handle each moment with mindfulness and clear comprehension, everything
functions well, nothing goes amiss, our mind is content and inner peace
can arise. Keeping our attention focused on each step on the way will
eventually bring us to the summit.
IX. Pathways
to Power
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The four
pathways to power are, according to the Buddha, essential aspects of
realizing liberation. He said: "If a monk or nun has missed the four
pathways to power, they have missed the way to liberation. If they have
practiced the four pathways to power, they are practicing the right way."
These four
pathways are initially mundane, which means they are an endeavor, which
all of us are capable of pursuing. Only when they have become powers, are
they supermundane and constitute four of the 37 factors of enlightenment.
Because they
are so essential to practice and cannot be disregarded, we need to know
about them in detail. We have to understand them in an analytical way, so
that we can check up on our own results. This is the criterion that
eventually turns knowledge into wisdom. We can learn any of the Buddha's
teachings by heart, that's not so difficult, but consequently we need to
look at these teachings in the light of personal endeavor. We can check
whether our practice has borne fruit or not. If so, we will continue in
the same way as before; if not we need to alter our approach. By
investigating within whether we are actually doing what the Buddha taught
and whether it has become part of our own inner being, we gain insight
into our mind's capacity. When we see that, through practice, we have been
able to enlarge the abilities of our mind, we will not become complacent,
but resolve to increase them further.
The four
pathways to power start out with chandha-samadhi. Chandha is
intention, and can be wholesome, unwholesome or neutral. It also means
desire or direction. In order to make it a pathway to power we have to use
it as the intention towards complete insight. Samadhi, as part of
the term, means that the intention has to be fully concentrated and not
dissipated. This would be the difference between living a worldly life or
living a life wholly dedicated to spiritual endeavor.
In a worldly
life, we are forced to dissipate our intentions into different directions.
It is the nature of life in the world. The necessity for obtaining and
looking after many different objects, even though we can minimize that,
will take up some time. There are always people and material aspects who
have a claim on us. We have to honor those claims. Our own ambitions and
desires are being fostered in the world as being useful and commendable.
In order to cultivate "concentration of intention" leading to total
liberation, we need to be in circumstances where no obstacles arise.
All four of
the pathways have willpower as an adjunct. Concentration of intention also
includes one-pointedness. It only becomes a true pathway when our
intention is directed towards the greatest power of all, namely the power
arising from letting go of all craving.
The second
pathway is "concentration of energy," (viriya-samadhi). Everyone
has a certain amount of physical energy which sometimes becomes
detrimental to our mental endeavor when there is too much restlessness. If
we have too little physical energy, that is also counterproductive. But
mental energy can be increased, namely by being one-pointed, using our
energy in one direction only, not having many irons in the fire. We need
to be clear about what is of the utmost importance for us in this life.
This needs checking up in the quiet introspection of our own
contemplation. "What is it that I want most?" "Where do I want to expend
my energy?" "What is my main intention?"
The answer
may not be to come to the end of dukkha. That is all right too. But
we can benefit by concentrating our energy and intention no matter where
we are heading, as it will protect us from wasting our time with useless
actions.
The willpower
we can arouse depends very much on our insight. If we have seen the
urgency of our own spiritual growth, we will find it easier to have the
will for practice. All of us are subject to instinctual actions and
reactions based on desire and craving. Willpower helps us to let go of
these and direct our energy into different channels. Urgency (samvega)
is an essential part of successful practice. When our insights give rise
to seeing the whole world on fire from craving and ourselves burning with
it, then urgency will become a natural part of our make-up and willpower a
concomitant to it. Willpower arises in direct proportion to urgency, which
is connected to our insight into the world around us; the world which does
not stop at our front door, because it lives in our own heart and mind.
The next
pathway to power is "concentration of consciousness," (citta-samadhi)
or one-pointedness of concentration. When intention and energy come
together in a powerful way coupled with willpower, meditative
concentration can result. The first two pathways are causes for the third
one to arise, leading to meditative absorptions. Deep tranquillity in
one's meditation is the underlying factor needed for profound insights,
which can change an ordinary worldling to a noble one, which is the goal
of our practice.
Most people
today are not really aware of that, but are interested in meditation to
gain release from stress. That too is all right. Why not? The Buddha's
purpose and teaching were relief and release from dukkha once and
for all, so that it can never arise again. If we translate dukkha
as stress, which we can well do, then we might say, "yes it is relief from
stress. But the kind of release the Buddha had in mind is based on the
depth of insight, where we realize and experience that is isn't really
dukkha that disappears, but the "me" who is experiencing it vanishes.
One-pointed
intention and one-pointed effort lead to one-pointed consciousness. The
mind finds itself in a state of awareness where there are no obstructions
or obstacles resulting from thinking. Insight does not arise from
thoughts, but is an inner, intuitive knowing quite different from
discursive and logical thinking, rather an outcome of a clear and calm
mind. This leads the awareness into the depths of truth, which has always
been there, but which did not rise to the surface before, so that the mind
could not grasp it previously.
What the
Buddha experienced under the Bodhi Tree, when he was able to formulate the
four noble truths and the noble eightfold path, was not a result of
discursive thinking nor of logical or learned understanding. It was a deep
inner experience which arose from a totally calm mind without
obstructions.
It is our
saving grace that a mind can do only one thing at a time. When we are calm
and concentrated all our hindrances are momentarily laid to rest. This is
the boon of meditation. When there are no obstacles in the mind, it has
the ability to recognize an entirely different depth than it does under
ordinary circumstances, when we are always in danger of having greed, hate
or deluded mind states arise. When we arouse the pathways to power we
create a different dimension in the mind. This is essential, as otherwise
we may believe in the Buddha and his teaching, but may not be able to
prove it ourselves. It is up to all of us to live the Dhamma in heart and
mind.
The fourth
pathway is the "concentration of investigation." Subsequent to the
experience of calm and tranquillity with their inherent expansion of
consciousness, comes investigation for insight. The meditative calm
becomes a condition for insight through concentrated investigation, when
we realize the impermanence of even the best meditative states. None of
the pathways, however, only apply to meditation. While they benefit us
greatly in the context of meditation, they are useful and practicable in
all other moments of our lives.
We certainly
need concentrated intention in daily living. We cannot one day intend to
be kind, the next day selfish, then kind again and expect to be peaceful
and happy. We also need to know what we are aiming for in mundane living.
If we want a university education, we have to concentrate on that
intention. We cannot go to university one day, stay home the next day and
expect to pass examinations.
Concentration
of energy is also a basic requirement of daily living. If we conserve our
energy to use it where it bears the best fruit, our mundane endeavors will
flourish and be easily accomplished. If we develop and cultivate right
intention, energy, willpower and concentration, we can increase our
potential manifold.
Notwithstanding any results we may see in ourselves, we should never
expect to be either totally perfect or totally imperfect. We need to look
upon ourselves as practitioners, those who are learning. In the Buddha's
time they were called savaka, which means "hearer." If we consider
ourselves in that way, we need not search for perfection or imperfection,
but rather try to draw nearer to giving up all ideas of "me" and "mine."
Concentrated
investigation of phenomena is an aspect of our moment to moment
mindfulness, which enables us to see anicca (impermanence),
dukkha (unsatisfactoriness) or anatta (corelessness) wherever
we look. Everything that exits proclaims these three characteristics, so
that we need never be without Dhamma consciousness. Usually one of the
three aspects becomes more pregnant with meaning for us and our mind veers
in that direction to investigate the underlying truth behind the reality
in which we live.
We are never
without an object for investigation. Our thoughts and feelings are full of
these three characteristics. When there is a pleasant feeling, can we keep
it? Do we feel unhappy when it is gone? Are we beginning to see this whole
person we are so concerned with, as nothing but flux and flow, with no
solid core to be found anywhere? When we look at ourselves again and
again, we will eventually realize that we cannot find an unchanging
substance within.
Depth of
insight arises through the meditative process. However, we need to assist
our practice by investigative thoughts and directions in daily living. If
our mind is concerned with worldly affairs or sensual pleasures during the
day, it is asking too much of it to become calm and insightful in the
evening. It is an unrealistic expectation, which no mind can fulfill. We
need to prepare our mind, so that it is used to thinking in terms of
Dhamma consciousness, with mindfulness already established as a daily
habit. Then we can proceed with meditation without first having to shed
all mental burdens. We are already facing in the right direction and can
easily achieve calm and peacefulness, which are our resource for mental
energy.
When we are
young, we may be inclined to think that our body is our source of energy.
But the body can fall sick at any time, can be maimed or even die. Our
real energy source lies in the fact that the mind can renew itself and
become powerful through the arising of deep tranquillity. Then it doesn't
matter whether the body is old and decrepit or young and healthy, because
mind is the master and body the servant.
We need the
meditative calm as our fuel supply. It is more important even than food.
Although one does eventually have to have food again, one can go without
it for quite a long time, much longer than usually thought possible, and
still have much energy to meditate. We have this natural resource within,
yet very few people take advantage of it. In order to make use of it, the
mind needs protection during daily living, so that it is already in the
right frame of consciousness when meditation begins. Insight into the
futility of ambitions and desires helps to lessen discursive and
distracting thinking.
The four
pathways to power are mundane when we are practicing and become
supermundane when we have perfected them. They bring total liberation from
dukkha if culmination of intention, energy willpower, calm and
insight is achieved, which they demand of us.
X. Making
the Most of Each Day
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Now the time
has come to go home from this retreat. In order to take as much benefit as
possible with us, we need to be aware how to organize our daily lives. If
we go back and do exactly as we've always done, within a week everything
will be forgotten. Coming to another meditation course in the future, we
would have to start all over again.
Who knows
whether there is much time in this life. This is the only life the we can
take responsibility for. Here we have some control over how we spend our
day. The future is non-existent. "I'm going to meditate 'tomorrow'" is
foolish. There is no tomorrow, there is only now. When the next life
comes, it's this life; actually this is our next life. Finding lots of
reasons not to practice today is always possible: the children, the
weather, the husband, the wife, the business, the economy, the food,
anything will do. What kind of priorities we have is strictly of our own
making.
If the future
does not exist and the past is completely gone, what do we have left? A
very fleeting moment indeed, namely this one. It passes quicker than we
can say it. But by using each moment skillfully, we can eventually have
moment-to-moment awareness, which results in deep insight.
When getting
up in the morning, the first thing would be a determination to be mindful.
Becoming aware of opening our eyes, is the beginning of the day, and the
beginning of mindfulness. If we have opened our eyes before becoming aware
of that, we can close them and start all over again. And from that small
incident we will gain an understanding of mindfulness and what it means,
then we can let the mind be flooded with gratitude that we have another
whole day at our disposal, for one purpose only. Not to cook a better
meal, not to buy new things, but to draw nearer to Nibbana. One needs
enough wisdom to know how this can be accomplished. The Buddha told us
again and again but we are hard of hearing and not totally open to all the
instructions. So we need to hear it many times.
Being
grateful brings the mind to a state of receptivity and joyful expectation
of "what am I going to do with this day?" The first thing would be to sit
down to meditate, maybe having to get up a little earlier. Most people die
in bed, it's a perfect place for dying, and not such a perfect place for
spending an unnecessarily long time. If one has passed the first flush of
youth, one doesn't need so much sleep any more.
In most
homes, starting at 6 o'clock, there is noise. If that is so, we need to
get up early enough to avoid that. That alone gives a feeling of
satisfaction, of doing something special to get nearer to Nibbana. If we
have a whole hour available for meditation, that's fine; at least let us
not practice under half an hour, because the mind needs time to become
calm and collected. The morning hour is often the best for many people,
because during the night the mind is not bombarded with as many conscious
impressions as it is during the day, and is therefore comparatively calm.
If we start meditating for half an hour and slowly increase it until we
reach a whole hour, that's a good program. Each week we could add ten
minutes to the daily practice.
After the
meditation we can contemplate the five daily recollections. Now the mind
is calm and collected and has more ability to reach an inner depth.
I am of the
nature to decay
I have not gone beyond decay
I am of the
nature to be diseased
I have not gone beyond disease
I am of the
nature to die
I have not gone beyond death
All that is
mine, dear, and delightful, will change and vanish
I am the
owner of my kamma
I am born of my kamma
I am related to my kamma
I live supported by my kamma
Any kamma I will do, good or evil, that I will inherit.
The exact
words do not matter that much. Words are concepts, only the meaning
counts; the impermanence of our bodies, of what we think we own, such as
people and belongings, and being responsible for our own kamma. Another
recollection is about having a loving and kind attitude towards oneself
and others and to protect one's own happiness, and wishing to same for all
beings:
May I be
free from enmity
May I be free from hurtfulness
May I be free from troubles of mind and body
May I be able to protect my own happiness.
Whatever
beings there are,
May they be free from enmity
Whatever
beings there are,
May they be free from hurtfulness
Whatever
beings there are,
May they be free from troubles of mind and body
Whatever
beings there are,
May they be able to protect their own happiness.
Having
reflected on these two aspects in a meaningful way, we can keep three
things in mind. First comes mindfulness, bare attention to the prevailing
mode of being. That can be a physical activity without the mind going
astray, or it may be a feeling or a thought which has arisen. Paying full
attention, not trying to bury it under discursive debris, but knowing
exactly what is happening in one's life.
When physical
activity does not demand our attention, we can again direct thoughts to
the fleeting aspects of our own lives and everyone else's, and reflect
what to do in the short time available. When we consider this correctly,
kindness, lovingness, and helpfulness arise as priorities. We need not
help a lot of people all at once. Even helping one person, maybe someone
who lives in the same house, is beneficial. It is the attitude and
motivation that count, not the results.
Many people
want to do some good, but expect gratitude. That's spiritual materialism,
because they are aiming for a form of repayment for their goodness, at
least a very nice future life. That too, is equivalent to getting pain,
not in the coin of the realm, but through results. Both attitudes could be
dropped and the realization re-established that "this is the only day I
have, let me use it to best advantage." "What is most important, if I only
have such a short time in this life?" Then we can act out of the
understanding that in order to drew nearer to Nibbana, we have to let go
of self-concern, egocentricity, self-affirmation, personal likes and
dislikes, because otherwise the ego will grow instead of diminish. As we
affirm and confirm it more and more throughout this life, it gets bigger
and fatter, instead of reducing itself. The more we think about our own
importance, our own cares and concerns, the further away we get from
Nibbana, and the less chance for peace and happiness arises in our lives.
If someone
has a very fat body, and tries to go through a narrow gate, he might knock
his/her body against either side and get hurt. If someone has an extremely
fat ego, s/he might knock against other people constantly and feel hurt,
other people's egos being the gate posts against which one knocks. If we
have this kind of experience repeatedly, we get to realize that it has
nothing to do with other people, but only concerns ourselves.
If we start
each day with these considerations and contemplations, we will tend
towards not being overly concerned with ourselves, but trying to think of
others. Naturally, there is always the possibility of accidents. Accidents
of non-mindfulness, of not being attentive to what we are doing, accidents
of impetuous, instinctive replies, or in feeling sorry for ourselves.
These occasions have to be seen for what they are, namely accidents, a
lack of awareness. There's no blame to be attached to other people or to
oneself. We can just see that at that particular moment we were not
mindful, and try to remedy it in the next moment. There's only the
Arahant, who is fully enlightened, who does not have accidents of that
sort.
The Buddha
did not teach expression or suppression. But instead he taught that the
only emotions which are worthwhile are the four supreme emotions (brahma
viharas) and that everything else needs to be noticed and allowed to
subside again. If anger arises, it doesn't help to suppress or to express
it. We have to know that the anger has arisen, otherwise we'll never be
able to change our reactions. We can watch it arising and ceasing. However
this is difficult for most people; anger doesn't subside fast enough.
Instead we can immediately remember that to express anger means that
particular day, which really constitutes our whole life, contains a very
unfortunate occurrence, and therefore we can try to substitute. It is much
easier to substitute one emotion for another than to drop one altogether.
Dropping means a deliberate action of letting go. As we have learned in
meditation, we can substitute discursive thinking with attention on the
breath; in daily living we substitute the unwholesome with the wholesome.
Usually our
anger arises towards other people. It's not so important to us what
animals do, nor what people do whom we don't know. Usually we are
concerned with those whom we know and who are near to us. But since that
is so we must also be familiar with some very good qualities of these
people. Instead of dwelling upon any negative action of that person, we
can put our attention on something pleasant about them. Even though they
may have just used words which we didn't like, at other times they have
said things which were fine. They have done good deeds, and have shown
love and compassion. It is a matter of changing one's focus of attention,
just as we learn to do in meditation. Until this becomes very habitual in
meditation, it will be difficult in daily life, but diligent practice
makes it happen. We practice in spite of any difficulty. If we remove our
attention from one thing and put it somewhere else, that's all we need to
work with. We will be protecting ourselves from making bad kamma and
spoiling our whole day. We may not have another day.
The immediate
resultants of all our thoughts, speech and action are quite apparent. If
we keep our attention focused, we will know that wholesome emotions and
thoughts bring peace and happiness, whereas unwholesome ones bring the
opposite. Only a fool makes him/herself deliberately unhappy. Since we're
not fools, we'll try to eliminate all unwholesomeness in our thinking and
emotions and try to substitute with the wholesome. All of us are looking
for just one thing, and that is happiness. Unhappiness can arise only
through our own ideas and reactions.
We are the
makers of our own happiness and unhappiness and we can learn to have
control over that. The better the meditation becomes, the easier it will
be, because the mind needs muscle power to do this. A distracted mind has
no strength, no power. We cannot expect perfect results overnight, but we
can keep practicing. If we look back after having practiced for some time
we will see a change. If we look back after only one or two days, we may
not find anything new within. It is like growing vegetables. If we put
seeds in the ground and dig them up the next day, all we will find is a
seed. But if we tend the seeds and wait some time we will find a sprout or
a plant. It's no use checking from moment to moment, but it is helpful to
check the past and see the changes taking place.
At the end of
each day it can be a good practice to make a balance-sheet, possibly even
in writing. Any good shop-keeper will check out his merchandise at the end
of the day and see which one was well accepted by the customers and which
stayed on the shelves. He will not re-order the shelf items but only the
merchandise that sold well. We can check our actions and reactions during
the day, and can see which ones were conductive to happiness for ourselves
and others and which ones were rejected. We do not re-order the latter for
the next day, but just let them perish on the shelf. If we do that night
after night, we will always find the same actions accepted or rejected.
Kindness, warmth, interest in others, helpfulness, concern and care are
always accepted. Self-interest, dislike, rejection, arguments, jealousy
are always rejected. Just for one single day, we can write down all our
actions on the credit or debit side, whether happiness-producing or not.
As we do that, we will find the same reactions to the same stimuli over
and over again. This balance sheet will give a strong impetus to stop the
pre-programmed unwholesome reactions. We have used them for years and
lifetimes on end, and they have always produced unhappiness. If we can
check them out in writing or see them clearly in our minds, we will surely
try to change.
Starting the
day with the determination to be mindful, contemplating the daily
recollections, realizing that this is the only day we have and using it
most skillfully, and then checking it out in the evening on the balance
sheet, will give us a whole lifetime in one day. If this is done carefully
and habitually, the next day, which is our next life, has the advantageous
results. If we've had a day of arguments, dislikes, worries, fears and
anxiety, the next day will be similar. But if we have had a day of
loving-kindness, helpfulness and concern for others, we'll wake up with
those same modes of being. Our last thought at night will become the first
one in the morning. The kamma we inherit shows up the next day, we don't
need to wait for another lifetime. That's too nebulous. We do it now, and
see results the next day.
Before going
to sleep it's useful to practice loving-kindness meditation. Having done
that as the very last thing at night, it will be in one's mind first thing
in the morning. The Buddha's words about loving-kindness were: "One goes
to sleep happily, one dreams no evil dreams, and one wakes happily." What
more can one ask? Applying the same principles day after day, there is no
reason why our lives should not be harmonious. That way we're making the
most of each day of our lives. If we don't do it, nobody else will. No
other person is interested in making the most of each day of our lives.
Everyone is interested in making the most of their own lives. We cannot
rely on anyone else for our own happiness.
As far as our
meditation practice is concerned, we must not allow it to slide. Whenever
that happens one has to start all over again. If one keeps doing it every
day, one can at least keep the standard attained in the retreat, possibly
improve on it. Just like an athlete, who stops training has to start all
over again, in the same way the mind needs discipline and attention,
because it is the master of the inner household.
There is
nothing that can give us any direction except our own mind. We need to
give it the possibility to relax, to stop thinking for a little while, to
have a moment of peace and quiet, so that it can renew itself. Without
that renewal of energy, it decays just the same as everything else does.
If the mind is taken care of, it will take care of us.
This is a
sketch of how to use one's day to day activity and practice. We must never
think that Dhamma is for meditation courses or special days: it is rather
a way of life, where we do not forget the impermanence and
unsatisfactoriness of the world. We realize these truths within our own
heart, just thinking about them is useless. If we practice every day in
this way, we will find relief and release from our cares and worries
because these are always connected with the world. The Dhamma transcends
the world.
Note
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1. The four supreme efforts (padhana) are:
1. To avoid
unwholesome states of mind
2. To overcome unwholesome states of mind
3. To develop wholesome states of mind
4. To maintain wholesome states of mind.
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